it's hard.
it's hard to wake up and have people around you say that they love you, especially when you don't feel the same way back.
i continuously lie to those when i tell them i love them, my non-existent emotions just confuse me.
if i'm in a better mood, i can say the simple 3 word statement as if it were nothing, and i believe that's quite sickening.
i used to just not say it back, but i began to realise that was affecting others, and over time i've realised i care more about how others feel in comparison to myself.
i just don't know what i'm doing at the end of the day.
