Diary scars (unofficially 'will you be my diary?' )

Chapter 16

I was sitting down with the half empty bottle resting against my lips as I took another sip. Another tasteful, yet burning sip. Why me, why did I have to find out that my sister was pregnant with Megan. I took another sip.

I just couldn't understand why I was the cursed child when you see so many privileged kids and teens alike walking around with their fancy phones and fancy clothes looking at people with a stuck up nose and arrogant little whines of how their life is unfair and hard. It just made no sense.

The stars blinked at me from above, secretly judging me for how I acted and what I was doing. No matter where I go, I'm always the one that gets dealt the hard hand.

"I fucking hate you God, you've taken everything from me. My father's decency, my mother's life, my sister's life, and my will to live. And now you've just sprung on me the fact that my worst enemy is my niece?! You know what, go to hell, maybe I'll see you there one day!!" I screamed as I finished the last gulp of vodka from the tiny beer bottle sized bottle.

I sat down again, this time closer to them. I sat closer to my sister and my mother, feeling bad that I had done that by their graves. I reached out and placed a hand against Perri's tombstone.

"Why, why didn't you tell me before you died. Why didn't you tell me that you were pregnant? Were you ashamed? Scared? Blaming yourself? I mean, if I had abandoned my teen baby, I'd be ashamed too. You should have raised her and that way we could have grown up together, instead of growing to enemies that hate each other." I said to her grave.

"I wish I could see you in person." I said to her grave. My vision started going blurry, probably from the amount of unhealthy things I drank. But that was it, before it all went blank.

Morgen's POV:

I paced around the room in a constant up and down. This was super stressful, my girlfriend was missing and all we were doing was standing around. I knew she left herself and wasn't taken, that much was clear. But where was she? Where would she have gone.

Vanessa sat down on the lounge couch in Alle's and Ihzhak's house living room. So did the rest of the group.

"So where would she have gone?" Vanessa asked out loud. Ashton and Daniel sat nearby on the floor, fidgeting with the edge of the carpet. The room was a silent tomb, soundless and irritating. All I could hear was Ashton and Daniel playing with the carpet.

"WILL YOU STOP THAT!!!" I yelled at them, clearly irritated. They were getting on my nerves, first they somehow upset Kimmy with the letter, and Daniel refused to tell me what was on it. He said it wasn't my business, and that Kimmy could tell me if she wanted me to know. I clenched my fists by my side as Daniel smirked at me, Ashton shrunk back further away.

"Calm down Morgen. We're doing our best." said Teagann.

"Well you guys may all be super calm, but whatever was on that letter made my girlfriend want to runaway, even for a little bit. So don't fucking tell me to calm down when my girlfriend is missing." I said in a rush of air and frustration. A look passed over Daniel's face, it was so quick that if you weren't looking, you'd miss it.

"Dude, you guys only got together today. Have you even had the relationship conversation yet?" Daniel asked, he was so jealous, like seriously. Just cause Kimmy chose me over him.

"Daniel don't even fucking go there you jealous bastard. If you hadn't wrote that letter on knew what was on it, then we wouldn't have invited you to help." I said, I felt a killing calm rage slip over my body, I felt tense and under so much pressure.

"Look Daniel, could you just give us an idea about what was on that letter?" Cleo asked. He gave an annoyed sigh. Then shook his head. Ihzhak jumped off the last step he was sitting on and charged at Daniel in a sense and pinned him to a wall by his throat. He brought his face right close up to his ear.