Diary scars (unofficially 'will you be my diary?' )

chapter 22

But the time I got back home, it was about 1 O'clock in the afternoon and it was already getting chilly. I ran up the stairs and into my room, my perfect hiding place. I jumped on my bed and buried my face in my soft feather light pillow. Today was going to be a long day, especially because I had found out when I was gonna meet Morgen's family, and that was daunting and scary just to think about.

February 15th 2020

I know I haven't written for a while, but I've been kinda pre-occupied. Morgen and I are now dating, finally, it took us long enough, I mean everyone who knew us were practically shipping us, all except Daniel whose tried everything to get on my good side, I just don't know why he's so jealous. Maybe it's cause he's not in a relationship and he envies that. But he could literally have any girl he wanted, well at least most.

And what's up with his super over-protective behaviour, like seriously dude, stop. He just never knows when to quit.

Literally, then he delivers the news about Megan and my sister, it's like he's trying to throw me off and I won't stand for that, I'm sick of him always getting in my way, I know I sound like a frick'n villain right now, but it's true.

Last night my uncle met Morgen, well more like interrupted us. Morgen was literally kissing my neck to try and persuade me to tell him who I was meeting, and me being stubborn and not wanting to give up my secret contact, I didn't budge. Ihzhak went all rage on his ass and my uncle just stood there trying not to laugh as I pulled Ihzhak off of him. Uncle Alex and Morgen had a bit of a rough start, but then they warmed up to each other. But now it's my turn to meet his family, and I'm scared as shit, Laryanna, Morgen's sister wanted to meet me so I could have a familiar face if I needed someone to talk to when I meet the fam. We bonded almost instantly and became friends.

For the first time in my life, I felt truly valued and free to be myself. Sure Ihzhak's been very over-protective and Daniel's been a jerk and causing trouble for me at school, but Morgen has helped me a lot, more than he will ever understand.

I have something that I need to say, but I'm scared of what will happen if the words ever come to light, I'll just be cast aside like my father did to me, and I'm just not ready to relive that all over again.

I've started warming up to school, very slowly, especially having to see Megan every school day and pull myself together when she takes another vicious swipe at me with her venomous claws. Harvey has loved tormenting Daniel about me and Morgen being together, which is really annoying because then Daniel gets over-protective and envy and jealousy kick in.

The other day I suckered him in the face for starting a fight with Morgen saying he would never be good enough for me, that he would never come close to what I 'deserved'. Daniel always pulls the excuse '' don't you think she's suffered enough'' and it really makes my temper tick. I literally had to involve myself in their fight to shut Daniel up.

I've still been ignoring Daniel, I just can't find it in myself to let him off the hook, so far he's only ruined my life more than any good he's ever tried to do.

I just hate it when my teacher's insist on pairing me with Daniel every chance they get, it's like the teacher's are secretly shipping us together, Gross! But they just never learn, no matter how many books I throw at Daniel or experiments I blow up, they just keep pairing us together, and it really makes me want to throw something at them.

Laryanna has been giving me some info on what her family's likes and dislikes are just so I have a heads-up, which is really helpful. I mean I want to make a good first impression on them, but I'm scared that with me being me (always screwing everything up) with fail at yet another thing that regards my self morals and personality.

Morgen comes over most afternoons, well more like sneaks in, even though Alle is the one that always opens the door or keeps a window open with a smirk on her gorgeous face.

Tonight I have a date with Morgen and I'm kinda nervous, even though we spend every free second together when ever we can, It's just the feel of formal dinners that throw me on edge, I dunno, I just kinda feel like I'm expected to act a certain way that isn't me.

Vanessa is coming over soon to help me get ready, all Morgen said was to dress beautiful, which was hard. So now i'm currently waiting for my best friend to drag her butt over here and help me. I needed that crazy chick, she's what keeps me sane at school apart from my baby who decides to sit with me at breaks. Even when I tell him he can go sit with his friends. Though sometimes some of his friends come and sit with us. Like Casey Targent, who has become increasingly close to Vanessa, not that Vanessa minds, she's practically star eyed for him, well they both are for each other, they should just quit their crap and go on a date. I mean that's what everyone told me and Morgen, and look how we turned out!

It's now like 4:30 PM and Vanessa should be here very soon. Well she had to be, my date with Morgen was at 6:00 PM. which gave me an hour and a half, anyway, bye for now.

- Forever secretly getting therapy from your pages, Kimarrah :)