100 Letters To My Future Self

46th Letter: When We Got Our Asses Drunk And Tried To Write Down Our Thoughts

December 17, 2019

Dear Future Me,

How crazy can I be?

I'm drunk right now and I don't want to do crazy things so I'm writing this to clear my mind.

But please help me cos I'm losing it.. I really don't want to feel like this but earlier I was dying to drink and get drunk just to write and finish the story I've been longing to finish..

I hope I can finish it tonight coz they told me that when you write drunk you will create real story. And I hope that's really true..

Coz I'm really drunk right now and I can't even stand because it would humiliate myself. But I hope I'm creating real story when i read this tonight when I'm sobber.

2:51

I'm not sure if I can really stand..

3:30

Being drunk really feels like you're a cloud.
Or some clouds are covering your eyes..

I really don't know why but it feels like you've seen people but you're not part of them.
Like, you've seen a world but you're watching from afar..

I really don't know why I'm writing this but this is really how I feel right now.

I feel completely sane in the inside but outside, people may think I'm crazy and I can't even stand but I can really remember everything in the inside.

I know what I'm doing. I know what I'm thinking. But my eyes and my body is not cooperating.

4:00

I'm not making sense at all. My brain functions normally but my body doesn't.

4:30

It feels like I'm having a dream.

4:11

Oh my god. What did I got myself into?

Everything feels so wobbly right now
L. I can't even think properly.
Don't forget ms. Sheil has thrown up
4:24

Rigut n0w everything is running around in circles..

Eas hel0 men. I'm really drunk..

Nith8 g made sense anymore.i thrwo up. On the floor...

Oh my god..

That's really embarrassing

Please help. Me,

Love always,
magicshop

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Edit:

A/N: To my friend:

You'll never know but I'm really grateful for the help that night. I'm sorry I made so much mess and said so much crap to you and to your boyfriend ^_^. I felt so embarrassed about it even now. But thank you, anyway.