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III

Ben
As I watched my daughter go to her room, I felt myself take a deep breath. Something wasn't right.

"Ben, sweetheart, what's disturbing you?" My wife asked, walking up to me and cupping my face in her hands. As I looked into her eyes, I was reminded of when I saved her life many years ago, us in this same stance. I couldn't lie to her.

"I felt a disturbance in the force this morning. As if something horrible has happened. I think it has something to do with..Leiana." I took a shaky breath as I said this, I hated the idea of her getting involved in this.

"Oh ben, I am sure it was nothing. We have done the best we could, all we can do is try to keep her safe." Rey smiled, instantly making me feel better. That wouldn't stop me from spiraling though.

"But...what if she is connected to the force somehow? What if we didn't catch it and she is being pulled to the darkness? I...I don't want her to be what I was." Now I was crying, I love her too much to let her be pulled into the darkness.

Rey hugged me, whispering comforting things to me as she ran her hands in circles on my back. She put her hands on my cheeks and rubbed the tears away, looking into my eyes.

What would I do without her?

In the moment, looking into the love of my life's eyes, I kissed her. I kissed her like it was the last time. I couldn't let her go. I held her, hoping she understood that I would do anything for her. She pulled away, smiling at me with the most radiant smile in the world. I was so lucky.

Later that night, we went to bed. Rey has fallen asleep by now but I couldn't shake the worry that was infiltrating my mind. I am sure it was nothing, my daughter was safe in bed and so was my wife. We are surrounded by good people who will protect us. The first order is no more. I have nothing to worry about.

Then why was I sensing this?
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Leiana

I woke up in a cold sweat, the nightmare happened again. It was worse than before, more vivid. I felt sick just thinking about it. At least I woke up at a reasonable hour this time.

Taking a few deep breaths, I pulled myself out of bed and into the shower. The hot water instantly calming my body and mind. I could stay in there forever. Sadly though I had to save some of the hot water for everyone else.

Once I was dressed and ready, I grabbed some books and my journal and walked out the door. Hugging my parents before I did. Walking outside, it was as busy as usual. I tried my best to avoid the craziness and made my way to the trees.

In the forest there is this place, where there is one big tree. On it there are inscriptions made by people passing by and scratches from fights that have happened. Through it all though, the tree has stood tall and thrived. I find it inspiring, for some reason. I call this my place, I normally come here to read or write. I come here to escape for a little while. Nobody else comes here, so it is used mostly by me.

As I sat down on the grass under the tree I opened my journal. I needed to vent, I was frustrated about these nightmares. They confused me and terrified me. I didn't know how to deal with it all, so writing out my feelings was the best option at this point. I haven't written in years, but even as I opened my journal and picked up my pen, I felt a little bit better. My pen hit the paper and immediately I started writing everything down. My shoulders relaxed as I let out all of my worries on paper. I almost forgot about why I came here in the first place.

After a couple more hours of writing, I made my way back to the base. I walked through the clearing and immediately locked eyes with Ryder. He smiled at me and waved as he walked up to me. I couldn't help but think of what my dad said yesterday, maybe Ryder wasn't the best company.

"Sup Leia, I was looking for you this morning." He said, grinning like an idiot.

"Well you found me. What are you up to today?"

"Nothing really, we could hang out though. Go flying, or..." he looked me up and down (gross) "something."

He really had no shame, I knew he had an attitude but seriously? What does he want with me?

"I'm flattered Ryder, but I don't think I have the time" I said, trying to smile through the lie.

I turned away from him and was going to walk away but then I felt a hand grab my wrist. I looked back at Ryder. He wasn't letting go.

"Then make the time...please." He sighed, taking his hand away from my wrist "I..I haven't stopped thinking about yesterday with you. You are one of the only cool people here, and you are fun to be around. I really like spending time with you Leia." He took a deep breath, I could tell that was hard for him to do.

Honestly that was really..sweet. I couldn't help but smile, I didn't even bother correcting him about my name.

"Okay let's go somewhere" I said as I started walking ahead, I could hear his footsteps behind me trying to catch up.

"Um...where are we going?" He said

"You'll see" I said, keeping my eyes forward.
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ayyyy wassup peeps

I watched the force awakens again and damn 🥵 kylo ren could get it!!!

honestly adam driver is always a snack, that's the tea.

anyways, hope you all enjoy this chapter! Lemme know what y'all think so far, any feedback would be great!

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