Thebluhart

Chapter 23- The facts

I was in class, thinking heavy about everything. Me and Chad were broken up again and this time I think I came to my senses. I didn't want to take him back because he's put me through a lot and it really showed me who he was. Chad didn't care about me or the child that was growing in my stomach. It was all about looks for him, when he saw me, he preyed on me because he knew I was young and naive and could be easily taken advantage of due to my situation with my family. It hurt to know that I had fallen for a piece of shit although that's what kept a women's attention. You don't know your worth until you start dating men who treat you like it. I was going to get to bottom of this situation though, together or not. Why would Jasmine just flee away from him like he was some crazy maniac or something. He was indeed crazy but nothing that will make me want to relocate myself.
After school I decided to get in contact with Coi so she could hit up Jasmine for me. The conversation was brief, she had given me her number and told Jasmine to expect me because the last thing I wanted to do was scare her. I knew that fear but it wasn't like Jasmine's, I knew that their relationship was chaotic because who would leave? It had to be extreme. When I got on the phone with Jasmine she had told me that she'll be coming into town to see Coi so that way she can kill 2 birds with one stone. She had told me that she was afraid to do so but she was going to take a Chance because it's been almost 2 years. I hung up the phone and just watched some tv because I had nothing better to do. The pregnancy was still at a starting pace so I wasn't really stressing about it. All my stress came from Chad driving me up the wall with this relationship. I'm surprised I even made it this far with him. I wanted my baby to have their father in their life but he was crazy and didn't know how to control his self. The relationship was mad bipolar, always telling me that he was going to change in order for me to fall under his spell once again. It was unbelievable, I was going to have to teach my kid how to love on my own because their father...well ya know.
One week later...
I was in class when I got a text message from Jasmine saying that she was in town. She wanted to meet up at this very lowkey cafe, and I had no problem with that because I respected her privacy. We were meeting up today because her and Coi were doing some shopping together and why not. After school I quickly headed over to that cafe. I didn't even say goodbye to Angel and Gravity but it was fine I was going to text them. I entered the cafe and walked over to the table where I saw Coi giggling  with a brown skin girl with shoulder length curly hair who I guessed was Jasmine.
"Hey ladies, how are you?" I said as I plopped down in my seat
"Hello beautiful, Jasmine this is Aliza and Ali this is Jasmine" Coi said as she introduced us
"Hey, nice to finally meet you" as she greeted me I couldn't help but to notice the scar she had on her cheek. I stared at it a bit but then I was being rude so I just nodded and smiled and said
"Nice meeting you too"
"You're very beautiful, no wonder why he preyed on you too" she said
"You are too" I replied with a awkward smile
"Yeah so, how you been? Everything  okay with the kid? Coi asked me trying to change the subject and basically trying to make the situation less awkward
"I've been okay and as for the baby, well I'm just ready to have it" I told her
"Oh wow! Already? Aren't you like a month?" She asked
"Yeah but still, it's hard being pregnant, can't snack the way I want. Still have teenage taste buds"
We all laughed at my comment and slowly got into the real conversation
"So Jasmine, if you don't mind me asking, why'd you relocate?" I asked her
"Chad of course, that relationship was something else." She said
"I figured" I replied
"Yeah, Chad and I meet at that club that he still runs. I was young, naive and broke. My mom had just died, my dad was hooked on drugs somewhere and I was living with my grandma. We were about to get evicted and I couldn't let that happen so I started stripping. Chad made me dance for him and he named me "special", I was only stripping for a short period of time until he sweep me off my feet and was paying my bills and buying nice things. I was so young and dumb that  I didn't realize that all things had a price even if they appeared free. Chad and I got into plenty of altercations, he whopped my ass multiple times and I just kept running back. Till one day we had a big fight and he basically tried to kill me, cut my face with a box cutter and that explains the scar. At the time I was one month pregnant and I was scared to tell him because I didn't know how he'll react. I hid my pregnancy from him an-and um he um he-" she was cut off by her tears that she strongly tried to hold back but couldn't
"It's okay love, it's okay!" Coi grabbed her into a hug and just rubbed her back
"I'm fine, but um I miss carried my baby, it was the most devastating time in my life. I wanted to press charges so bad but his parents brought my silence and told me to get out of town. I'm so sorry Aliza...because I know he's a fucked up person and I know the real him and he doesn't stop at nothing. I'm sorry he's the father of your child and I'm sorry if you had to put up with any abuse from him because he should've been sent to prison long time ago for this shit. You don't deserve that...don't do what I did. Don't hide, tell somebody because you'll save a lot of girls life. He nearly killed me and didn't see the inside of a cell for at least a day for it. So please, for the sake of you, your baby and other women...take his ass to court." She wiped her tears
And I just sat there on the verge of mine, praying they wouldn't fall. I was scared for my life. I didn't know what to do at this point...I loved him well at least I think I did. I was filled with emotions because apart of me still cared about him and wanted him to be better. Then the other part of me was begging me to break free and run as fast as I could.
"Thanks for telling me this. I needed to hear that" I took a deep breath and got up from the table
I needed to think because this was way too much weight on my nerve. That Uber ride felt like the longest one in my life, even though I didn't live that far from it. Tears poured down my face as I just thought about Jasmine's words. They echoed through my mind and for some reason it hurt. I always broke up with Chad again and again but I was never completely done with him because I always found my way back. This time was different though it was like I had to let him go because he was a bad person and he was but I wanted to see past that. I wanted him to be better so he could be a dad to his kid but the fantasy I painted in my mind didn't match with reality. I got out the Uber and walked inside my house, I was in no mood to deal with my mom and her questions about why I was late so I just walked straight to my room. I laid down on my bed and cried again because this was all too much because just a few months ago I was this weird OutKast with one friend then I became a stripper who got involved with this abusive guy who knocked me up and then I tell my mom and she cant even look in my eyes. We used to be so close and now that relationship was gone and honestly I know she tried to keep me from making the same mistakes she did but I don't think she realized that the more she stressed the not or don't on the subject made me want to try for myself. It isn't her fault and I will never blame her for my mistakes but holding your child hostage will not protect them from the world. I wiped my tears and went to start a bath for myself because today was just a lot. You know those days when you just get overwhelmed with everything you've been going through? Well today was one of those days and it just hit harder for some reason because I guess the kid inside of me had a huge impact on my hormones and emotions so there you have it. After my bath, I got dressed and headed to the kitchen to make me something quick to eat and then back to my room. Then right when I was about to go to sleep early as fuck my phone lit up from the group chat with Angel saying she had the keys to her dad's Jeep and wanted to go to the beach. At first I was going to turn it down but maybe this is what I needed. Be around some friends and have fun to get my mind off some things. I quickly got dressed and waited till they said they were outside.
After what felt like forever I jumped out the window and rushed over to the Jeep.
"Hey bitches!!!" I said as I got in the backseat
"Hey preggars" Angel replied
"You look great" Gravity complimented
"Thanks, but how'd you manage to get the Jeep Angel?" I asked
"Girl he don't know I got this shit" she laughed
We all laughed at her and started listening to some music
"We have one more stop" Angel said as she hit a left turn
"What stop?" I asked cluelessly
"We're going to get Josiah" Gravity said
"Oh" I replied dryly
"Don't be like that, I'm sure he misses you" Angel said
"Girl bye! That boy don't even wanna see me, I messed up with him...hurt his feelings" I replied
"He's forgiving, so I'm sure if y'all just talk then everything will be okay" Gravity added
"I'll take your word for it but if he don't then you owe me 5 dollars" I told her
"5 dollars? You know what I can do with that?" Gravity laughed
"What? Buy a 4 for 4?" Angel joked
We all laughed at her comment and continued the ride to Josiah's house.
We finally pulled up and waited on him to come outside. I don't know but for some reason I was nervous as fuck to see him because it's been some time since we've talked.
He got in the car smelling all good and I'll have to admit I was weak as fuck. Josiah was a good guy but he didn't dress like somebody who looked like they'll treat you right, he was giving very much fuck boy vibes from his clothing but the way his personality was, was a different story and I was forever sorry for how I treated him. It wasn't his fault though and I made sure that was clear to him because I wanted something that wasn't good for me. I didn't blame him for moving on or feeling like shit after I let him down easy, I was very sorry but that wasn't going to take the pain away.
"Hey Josiah" angel and Gravity said
"What's up y'all?" He said
I stayed silent because I was nervous to say anything
"Why we going to the beach at this time of night on a school night? Y'all trying to kill me?" He laughed and asked
"No stupid! I was just bored and I wanted to ride in my dad's Jeep" Angel said
"Hell nah, that man gon fuck you up if he find out"
"Shut up! Don't jinx me Josiah" angel replied
The rest of the ride was just filled with the radio changing through the songs and us singing along but it was still kind of weird and awkward because Josiah and I still haven't uttered a word to each other.