I love you. Me too

Friend or closer?

"T.O.P! Please listen!"

"I think I've seen enough to understand."

"No.... No don't leave me. Please!"

T.O.P just shook his head.

"I can't love like this. Good bye Carley. Have a good life with Yesung."

And then left.

Leaving me with a frozen heart.

I don't know what happened next.

I fell to the floor with shaking hands.

Someone had came into the room and pulled me up.

I was still staring into space.

I finally came to my senses the next day.

I had been laid onto my bed.

The next day,

Yolanda came into my room.

She sat onto my bed.

I was murmuring in my sleep.

"Um.... Yesung....... T.O.P..... no... Don't leave me... um...."

I apparently said.

Yolanda just smiled and left.

Creepy.....

Anyways, I finally woke up.

With really red eyes.

I wasn't crying.

Why?

I don't know.

I walked downstairs to meet my new family.

Super Junior.

Big Bang (without T.O.P)

Exo

I rubbed my eyes to make sure.

Yep...

Exo was there.

Chen smiled at me and held out a plate,

"I'm sorry about...what happened."

I looked away, not wanting anyone to see the tear fall.

I turned back, tried to see a cheerful "thanks." And then looked at the plate.

It was eggs and bacon.

A typical breakfast.

I sat down at a table and started to devour the meal.

Everyone was looking at me but I didn't care.

After finishing, I looked up and saw everyone staring at me.

I wiped my mouth with my sleeve.

"Aish. That's dirty. Here, use this."

Chen said, holding out a handkerchief.

I smiled a 'thanks' and took the handkerchief

He smiled, opened his mouth but thought better and then shut it.

I knew he wanted to say something.

And I wanted to know what.

"I'm going it my bedroom. Chen, can you come with me?"

He nodded, giving Emily the signal that obviously said 'Stay with GD. Don't let him be by himself.'

Emily nodded and gave me a thumbs up.