Step-Brother|| JiminXReader

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We pull apart from each other but he doesn't let go of me. He holds my face gently like if he let it go I was going to shatter. I looked deep into his eyes and see he was lost and broken. I wanted to hold him and tell him everything was okay but I was more confused that he was in my room kissing me after what he done to me today

'He broke up with you'

I know

I push away from him and go on the other side of my room feeling so cold as I move away "What are you doing here?" I swallow mustering confidence to speak to him "I can explain" He steps closer and I step back "No. Stay there. Explain" I said and he leans back on my table in my room slightly sitting on it "You're not going to like what you're about to find out about me" He says and I look  in a direction that's not him

"I am in a gang" I look up at him and at this point he's not even looking at me. He couldn't look me in the eyes and say it "I instruct people to kill people, well I did." My heart began to beat as I was hearing his words  "My dad was in that mafia and I thought that maybe if I followed in his footsteps he would respect me more, he always treated me like a boy and I wanted to be treated like a man. Like I mattered" I was staring at him not being able to look away 

"I was ruthless, I had to strip myself of empathy. I don't think I have hated myself more in life. I met my brothers, Jungkook, Taehyung and Hoseok but" He looks down as his face goes red  

"Hoseok is dead. I don't think I have ever blamed myself in my life for letting him die without a fight and I vowed to myself that I would protect the rest. I was recruited to join the boss and I look at this as an opportunity to protect my brothers and get away from such life. I took it, worked for a year promising my dad that I was not going to revert to such life. He was able to turn away and change his life, so why couldn't I?" He had so much doubt in his voice which made me want to keep on listening the more afraid I got

"I saved enough money to move away with my dad who had met Jenny's mum through travelling and I was able to fund for Taehyung and Jungkook to run away as well. It was only a few months, not long, and now Taehyung is gone. I got a text one day from Taehyung to meet him and I went there but to my surprise no one was there. Just his phone at the location and that's when I knew" He takes a deep breath as if he was running a marathon, his thoughts were all clogged up

"I have no idea who could've have taken him. I failed him and I failed myself. I have been looking for him, that is why I was gone for so long. I couldn't tell anyone but I couldn't stop thinking about you. So I decided that for the time being I was going to stay close but far, coming to your house everyday and putting something to make sure you didn't forget about me. I knew I was going to be gone for a while but I thought that by now I would've found him or at least his body" He said the last part in a tone that made my spine shudder 

"I placed the teddy bear in here because I knew I had to leave the area soon, it was a precaution. Then Jungkook managed to find you. He came to where I said he should never come, where we swore we wouldn't meet. I don't know how he could remember and why he knew about you but he did and that was worrying. If he had known about you, who else would to? So" He finally looks up at me and my breath hitches at all the colour that was drained from his eyes and it was just darkness 

"I had to break up with you to make it seem more believable, and trust me Y/n, I didn't want to but I had to" I look down "You could've told me at least" I look up at him shaking his head "No, cause I needed other people to believe you, I am constantly being watched, there are many people in school that are secretly watching me but I don't know who" He shrugs as he looks super stressed out

"Who could be watching you?" I ask and he snaps his head at me "I- can't say really because I don't really know a lot of people but I think your friend, what was her name again, Jackson's sister?" "Mary Anne?" "Mary Anne" He repeats nodding his head "Why would you think she's watching you? She didn't even know who you was before you showed up today" "That's what she wants to make you think" He tries to convince me and I shake my head "No, she doesn't even know what Jackson is playing at" "People are deceiving" He had a answer for every point I made and I didn't know what to say "I deceived you, didn't I?" He asks and I shut my mouth immediately 

"Jackson's sister, Eva-Jess, was madly in love with Taehyung, but I can't say if he liked her back at so much insensity. I could tell Taehyung didn't really like her but he did like the attention. He loved attention. Eva-Jess was willing to give it all to Tae, and she did, but she gave too much. You see at the time Jackson was aware of his little sisters crush but he didn't let anyone know. She stole from him one day and somehow it ended with Taehyung. Days went on and we couldn't pin point it, we knew about Taehyung's little secret but I wasn't aware Jackson was also aware. I never met Mary Anne in my life, and through my recollection she never came up in conversation but then again Jackson has always been the enemy" He was biting himself and I could see it was killing him. He really did love Taehyung but he was killing himself at this point 

I walk over to him and he tenses as I come close to him. He stands up straight staring at me as I come close. I reach my hand out for him to take it and he does and I lead him to my bathroom

"Look at yourself Jimin" I stare at him through the mirror seeing all the bruises on his face and his tired eyes which made me want to look away at the torture. He listens to me, looking at himself. 

He looked so lost