stupid poetry

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You aren't here.
You are gone and away.
Not physically, no. Only emotionally.
I talk to you and get 'ok's and 'mhm's
Do you understand what that does to me?

Do you understand the unspoken words i hold back?
Do you understand how badly i want you?
How badly i just want you back
I want the i love yous.
I want the calls
I want the jokes
I want the love.

But you don't anymore.
Your words are choking me.
Your absence is killing me
I'm falling apart right in front of you.

but
you.
don't.
care.

And you never will. you never did
the i love yous stopped
the calls ended sooner
the joking turned to fighting
the happy turned sad

you broke me. and so easily walked away
you left me
you left me to pick up all the pieces you left
to wreck myself slowly

you told me you wanted this. you wanted me.
but was that just a lie?
like all the other lies you told me?
we're you just waiting for the out
for me to fuck up so you can leave?

You are the reason hurricanes are named after people.