because of you

18) solitude.

It was a rainy day in Cali.
Five days have gone by and Dave hasn't spoken to anyone. He's been cooped up in the house slowly growing colder and colder in such a short span of time.

Thursday | 6:00 P.M:

Dave's POV:

I got up and decided to go for a evening run. It's been a minute since I went for one. I laced up my shoes and headed down to the beach, The sun was setting and everything was cool. Not many people were out there either which made it even better. I turned on some music and started. I got about 15 minutes into my run before I started getting angry again... I felt myself getting overwhelmed with the thought of Melanie and all she did. I ran back home and got in the shower.

20 minutes after ...

I sat on my bed and decided to reply to Laurianna.

"I'm straight." I sent.

A few minutes went by and she texted back. "No you're not and that's okay."

Shorty think she knew something, I chuckled to myself. She don't know nothing about what I'm feeling

"Whatever" I texted her back and tossed my phone down. I don't trust a soul and I probably never will again. This life is a pain game. A bitch is neva really yours and will only show they care to get what they can outta you. The love is neva real.

Around 7:00 I went to go grab myself some wings from the Deli and a philly cheese steak with fries. I need some food in my system.

It was raining a little hard outside but It was well needed out here in Cali.

I got back to the crib and ate on the couch with my legs kicked up watching Martin.

There was a knock on the door. "Man what the fuck" I mumbled to myself

I cleaned off my hands with my napkin and grabbed my gun from under the couch and tucked it.

I looked out the peephole and didn't see nobody. I started walking back then heard another knock so I opened the door and it was Laurianna...

"H-hey Dave" she said shyly.
"What you doin here?"

"I wanted to come check on you .. you never messaged me back and I got a little worried."

"I told you I'm straight now go home." I was about to close the door but she grabbed my hand.

I felt my heart lighten for a second but I snatched my hand away.

"Go Lau. Forreal"

She scrunched her eyebrows like she always does when she's frustrated.
"Dave I don't wanna go" she looked me in my eyes and I could tell she was sincere with what she was saying but I didn't trust it.
I mean, what for? Why should I trust anyone I can't even trust myself..

"I'm no good to be around right now Laurianna." I clenched my jaw thinking about Mel.

It's wrong to be putting my want for her and the thought of her being my karma against her but deep down I just felt that shit....

Or maybe it's my guilt.

She reached for my hand again and I let out a deep sigh, "Laurianna forreal. Go home" I said getting more stern with her