It's easy to look at love and and admire it. You'd dreamt about it your whole life, but nothing could have prepared you for the side effects of it, for the fragility of breaking and for the angst of falling.
Around you, even when you hadn't noticed...
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Once Jimin saw the light flicker in your eyes, like a lurring force driving him to you he couldn't help but move his head down and with one hasty move press his soft lips onto yours. You kissed him back. Jimin felt the butterflies fly around in his stomach. It was overwhelming and strange but he didn't want to let you go. No, not yet. It felt right, as if a puzzle piece was finally moving back to it's place. Then your phone rang loudly, the music blasting out and you jumped up immediately to answer it, the moment fading away before Jimin could blink.
"Hello?" You spoke, not having checked the caller ID before picking it up. Pressing your finger over your ear to mute any noises, you made out a voice, a mere whisper. The voice was sweet, female, and as soon as you heard the words she spoke you knew who it belonged to. Clara. It was Monday, aka the day of Changho's arrival and you were running late. "I'll be right there" You hung up, picking up your coat and moving to the door.
Curling your fingers around the knob you turned to shoot Jimin an indecipherable look. He was sitting on the floor, back to the couch, eyes glued onto your body, glistening as his heart shattered a little. You were leaving, no words, just silently you spun on your heel and left the boy alone with his broken heart for him to mend on his own. Infact, yours broke too. You didn't want to go. You were craving for his warmth and now that you'd gotten a taste of it you weren't sure how long you could stay away. The well planned scenario you were playing out was now out of tune but before you could be with him you deemed best to do this for yourself. You'd worked so hard, for so long, and as loudly as your mind was shouting for you to run back to him you blurred the sound out and kept walking ahead. It wasn't time yet. You were only wishing your intuition was wrong; it told you that you'd messed up and for once Jimin wouldn't wait for you. You'd broken a promise, and the silver haired boy had not only lost his mind, but his light too. A sour picture of you losing him played in your head. You couldn't help but let the tears rolled out. In spite of your best endeavors to hold them in the salty drops rolled down your cheeks which only made you start running. Why? You didn't know, but the air hitting your face and the tears coming out like a waterfall it felt like walking would never get you to your destination. Your body gave up soon after.
When you reached the store, no tears left to cry and short of breath you placed your arms onto the wooden desk and tried to regain yourself in a span of a few seconds. You were just on time. Changho walked in just then, Clara following behind him and the only thing you could think of was wether you still looked like a reck or closest to okay you could get. Changho didn't comment on it, which was usually a good sign.
"Sooyun!" He exclaimed, walking to you with his arms wide open, engulfing your thin form into a tight embrace.
One thing that sparked the smallest ammount of joy was his return. You were clear of your heavy duties and could focus on your life. Now that you had time and a lack of excuses you'd have to put in effort. No work. No friends. Only relationships to be saved and decisions to be made. That didn't exactly lighten you.
He let you go, taking in the renewed area you'd wasted so much time, sweat and tears on. "It looks beautiful" He spoke. A sense of relief overcame you. Atleast you'd done something right. "Thankyou".
"Thankyou for trusting me" I placed my hand on my heart. "Us".
He turned to look at the tall blonde.
"I couldn't have done this without her".
He clapped lightly, and blushing, I gave him the biggest smile possible in my frail state.
"Now, which one of you will give me the tour so I can take the two of you out for dinner?".
Truly, when the day came you thought you'd be a tad bit more excited about finally revealing your long awaited project to your boss, but your mind was anywhere but there. You spoke mechanically, harshly.
You could hear a clock ticking and there weren't any clocks around.
Once you were done an overly joyful Changho led you to a restaurant near by, some sushi place he liked alot. You were sitting there, face to face, chatting along with eachother- well they were, you were only listening, and that only to some extent-when Changho noticed you were in a bad mood.
"Sooyun" He called, snapping you out of your thoughts.
"Mmm?" You mumbled, looking his way and being caught off guard by his serious expression.
He leaned in. "Why were you crying earlier? What's wrong?".
At first you were hesitant with sharing your feelings so publically. Especially when you recalled the simple fact that Changho used to like you and he surely wasn't Jimin's biggest fans but he was easy to talk to, you trusted him, so maybe turning yourself vulnerable would not do any harm.
You didn't want to be there. Your mind was away. Your movements were spastic, vexid and messy like your speech. You had to go find him, now that you still could.
"I left someone behind today" You spoke,voice breaking at the end. "When perhaps he's the only one that ever offered me his heart, and I broke it".
The room turned eerily silent. Changho's eyebrows fell closer to his eyes, expressions turning sad. "Do you feel bad? or is it you didn't want to do so in the first place?".
He'd asked a hard question, but right at that moment the answer couldn't be clearer. "I'm afraid that I'll lose him" You hadn't realised you'd said it out loud, but you didn't care. It made you see things much unambiguously. "I really care about him".
Changho looked at you straight in the eyes. "Then he should know that".
You stood, automatically almost and picked your coat up once again.
Changho gave you an approving nod. "Go" He said.
With a smile on your lips, you did exactly that, you walked out of the restaurant and like you'd done many times that day ran onto the streets and left to find Jimin. You didn't look back because you knew it was right. You were running, no care in the world, but truly you felt you lacked the one thing you coudn't get back; time.
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Oh this isn't good but I still hope you enjoyed. This story is slowly coming to an end so we only have a few non-filler chapters left. Thanks for reading.
