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Chapter 16

Three weeks later...

Lana's POV:

I avoided everyone especially Giovanni for the past three weeks. I skipped every meal with all of them and honestly I couldn't care less.

I'm giving up. thats it I am mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually ruined.

there was a knock on my door and I knew that I was time to face whoever was behind that door. I knew I couldn't hide and cry in here any longer.

I backed away in fear as Giovanni walked in my room. "I'm sorry" was all he said.

"just leave please" I said not looking at him. 

"look I'm sorry I didn't think about what I was doing. please I cant have you fear me"

"but I am. Giovanni I am terrified of you."

"you shouldn't be. it wont happen again" he said coming closer.

"I don't believe you. you say that you are powerful and strong but one thing you're not is a man and its sad"

"I am a man Lana you've got it all wrong"

"the day you raised your hand on me, showed me that you're incapable of being a man. you are not a man Giovanni. man don't act like that" I said. "now please go. I really don't wanna see you anymore please"

Giovanni's POV:

I fucked up this time haven't I? what was I thinking? how could I have done something this horrible to her? 

"Hey Angel you good?" I asked when I saw her walking alone.

"how could you? honestly Giovanni I have lost all respect for you" she said walking away. "Don't you ever touch her or be near her I swear to god I'll kill you myself!" she yelled.

"fuck!" I yelled punching the wall. 

"instead of feeling sorry for yourself go and do something. yeah this girl has made this whole household crazy with her attitude and her energy. but behind that there's just a 21 year old girl who is tired of being constantly broken. first it was her parents, then her ex and now you. seriously? how long before she actually loses it?" Giuseppe said behind me.

"she doesn't wanna see me anymore"

"so what? prove her how sorry you are"

"I tired" I added.

"not enough. Giovanni since she came here this whole house became different. happier, better. hell we even celebrated a birthday party and it was fun. before her our job was to kill, kill, kill, eat and sleep"

"I know but what do you expect me to do huh? I've never been in this situation before I don't know how to handle it. I am so fucking sorry for putting my hands on her and I know she wont forgive me like ever again. maybe I should just give her space"

"Do whatever you want" he said walking away.

FUCKKK

Lana's POV:

"hey girl, how you feeling?" Angel said walking in my room.

"hey. ye I'm good much better"

"are you ok? with what happened?"

"obviously I'm traumatised, its probably the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. its like he was a demon, Angel I couldn't recognise him" I added. "but what scared me the most is when I cried he wasn't affected"

"I don't know what the fuck came over him. he never put his hands on any women before I was surprised when he did" she said. "do you think you could ever forgive him? and move forward?"

"I don't know. I want too because I know something in him didn't mean to do that, but I'm scared that something like this could happen again and next time who knows he might actually kill me"

"he wont kill you Lana you of all should know that"

"he almost did" I added. "maybe I should go talk to him? ask him why he did it? I mean surely there has to be a reason"

"obviously there has to be a reason. I think its a good idea"

"Do I go now? I don't know he must be busy" I asked.

"he should be in his office"

"alright then" I said getting off the bed. "I'm gonna go change"

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I made my way towards Giovanni's office feeling really nervous. what do I say to him? will he be happy to see me?

I arrived at his door taking a deep breath. you can do this. 

"Hi" I said slowly opening the door. "are you busy?"

"Oh Hey I'm so glad you're here. no for you I'm never"

"I thought we should talk. I want you to tell me one thing and then I'll leave you to your work"

"Anything ask me anything"

"What the fuck went through your mind when you abused me?" I said cutting straight to the point.

"I dont know. Lana I really dont. I was angry and annoyed that you wanted to end things with me and I was thinking about how you were the only thing that was good in my life and now I lost you. I became possessive and psycho and when you organised the party for Lorenzo I got jealous and upset because you looked so happy and it bothered me"

"Still we could've talked about things. The reason why I wanted to end what was going between us is because I was afraid that I'd fall for you and then you'd break my heart just like my ex did"

"You know I'd never do that right?" he said getting up from his chair.

"Thats the thing I dont know you well enough. I've been here what a few months and I fell like its my first day here"

"I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry I didn't know what I was thinking when I put my hands on you. Lana please you have to know that I would never do that to you again. I was stupid I wasn't thinking"

"Look I'm really willing to forgive you because I know you're not a bad person. I just want you to prove to me that I can trust you. That I can be safe with you even if we are not together. I want you to show me that you can handle me without fighting or abusing me because I wont be able to get through something like this again."

"I promise I'll do anything really just give one more chance please"

"alright. one more chance show me I can trust you though" I added. "I don't want to regret it"

"I promise you I'll do anything"

"alright then" I replied. "I'll go, leave you to your work"

END OF CHAPTER 16