Her Murkiness [Werewolf Story]

Chapter Twenty Six

"And if your heart was full of love,

Would you give it up?"

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Everything stopped.

Every sense drowned.

Hope was gone.

Faith was absent.

Gloom has sliced its way to mine.

I looked over at Agustin, but it didn’t even look like him. Color has drained out of his face and his breaths were shallow. The embroider was long gone. It was only him and I now.

No more chances.

Break the bond.

He pulled me into his soft embrace. His arms wrapped around mine and I felt his hot tears on my cold skin. I snuggled to him closer, and it was paradise and hell.

Paradise is being lost in his world, and hell is this real world.

“I never thought…” I started. He hushed my words by tightening his grip. And as I settled in his warmth I couldn’t help but think it through. He didn’t fight. He didn’t disapprove. He was saying his goodbyes already.

Where is the good in goodbye?

No, I don’t want to go. He broke me from my routine- he was my new constant.

Fuck, it hurts to lose your constant.

And somewhere in this closeness to him, I heard crushing screams. They reverberated in my brain unpityingly.

Shouts in repeat.

Then the voices dimmed and I heard a very familiar one.

‘Vivienne! Alpha! Where are you? We are under attack!’

‘Alpha! We lost so much pack members. We need more back up?’

The voice grew weaker every time. It was Adam’s.

‘Viv? Viv I think I’ve been scratched with silver.’

Viv. My childhood nickname.

‘Viv, I don’t know how but I think I’m leaving.’

‘I love you.’

Being in Agustin’s arms triggered my mind-link. And how I wish it didn’t.

My wolf is awake now, only to destroy me with Adam’s last words.

This is all my fault. I’ve been so selfish, God so selfish, that I neglected all the lives I’ve been responsible of. Salty tears burned my eyes as they escaped and I couldn’t help but drown in pathetic sobs.

I’ve lost everything I’ve ever known.

I felt Agustin slightly shift above me, and he gently pulled me away from the embrace. He looked at the

Embroider and he seemed to struggle with his next words.

“Break it now.” His words roughly hit me with realization and everything seemed unbearable. The

Embroider looked at me for confirmation and I absently nodded. I didn’t dare look at Agustin, for somehow I felt betrayed and hurt. Agustin’s head was pushed downwards his hands shielding his face. He looked so hidden and suddenly so distant. I focused on my heart beats as I sensed The Embroider’s movements around me.  Everything was a blare and I couldn’t recall much, until I felt her cold arms clasp on my wrists and push me up from my couch. She set me down on the icy dirty floor, and I felt Agustin’s presence just facing me.

“So now that you’ve decided to stay away from each other. That being apart is your best choice, for this bond was too dominant, too controlling for your liking, you are going to break it.” The Embroider started talking. Every word fully filling my ears as I listened cautiously.

I avoided Agustin staring at the ground and put all my attention to the process. We both closed our eyes when she told us too and we lied down on the ground. The coldness slightly stung my skin, but I have a bigger one inside me.

The Embroider spoke again,

“You shall never think of each other. You shall never touch again. You shall lose every special thing you have ever known. You shall leave each other. You shall separate. You shall never tremble at each other’s touch. You shall be a separate one- never a whole. You shall never speak like you used to. You shall only own memories. You shall forget. You shall move on. You shall never have any other mate- for you can only love and meet only one. You shall give up on each other. Your marks shall fade- no longer a sign of belonging. You shall not be mates anymore. You shall never be able to love again-never.”

Every sentence burnt and twisted in my guts, and I felt an urge to move away from the fire that licked my insides greedily. I felt a pounding pain right at my heart and then fire- fire everywhere.

I found it hard to straighten up as The Embroider ordered us too.

I squinted my eyes and saw Agustin’s torn expression. His eyes bored to mine and I felt electricity at his stare. It shot in my body and I screamed out. Agustin flinched and I gradually felt as if the electricity and the intensity of the stare was fading away.

No. Not yet.

We were losing it. We were losing us.

The Embroider looked at Agustin and kneeled down, whispering something in his ears. I wrapped my arms around my torso trying  to minimize the harm.

“I, Agustin Darkwin, reject you Vivienne Crithfold, as my mate.”

His words struck my heart completely as I tried to analyze my words. I could barely see The Embroider’s hands moving rapidly for me to reply.

As I looked at his bloodshot eyes and pale shaky fingers, I knew I had to do this. I knew I couldn’t break such a beautiful creature any more.

My voice only just came back as a murmur,

“I, Vivienne Crithfold, reject you Agustin Darkwin, as my mate.”

Agustin immediately looked down, a horrified expression engraved in his features.

The Embroider cleared her throat and spoke up, “Your bond shall be broken.”

How did it feel to say goodbye to Agustin?

It was the collision of every painful goodbye I ever received.

As I tried to hold onto Agustin’s reaction, it looked so familiar. It was the same reaction he held when he first touched me- deadly driven with panic and pain.

This was suffering. As I looked at him and felt nothing at all, only numbness, I knew that we have lost us forever.

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