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❝Confess.❞

The sky was dark.

The gloomy clouds, drifting and pouring their tears down.
The wind howls so strongly, that the trees couldn't help but swing their branches violently.
Sunlight, blocked by this horrible weather.

No light could shine through this dark day.

Here I stand,
In front of a big, and old wooden doors.
Soaked, from this treacherous weather.
I look up.

I looked up at the cross that's built on top of the old building.
I wondered,

Is this really what I wanted?

There I moved,
Taking steps, each time moving forward with a slow pace.
As my shoes leaves muddy footsteps behind,
My cold and shivering hands pushes the wooden doors open, with a creak.

*CREEAAAKKK-*

I moved, taking steps forward again.
A sense of deja vu overwhelms me with each step I take.
Have I done this before?

Have I suffered for the same thing before?

I shake my head, telling myself, that I'm just overthinking it.

I stop, and look forward.
I look forward towards the statue.
Both of it's hands were nailed to both sides of the cross.

I've never believed in God.
I'm not a righteous man, nor am I an atheist.
I'm just someone who wants to live his life peacefully..

But even a simple wish like that can't be fulfilled, huh?

I close my eyes, and took a deep breath.

I'm overthinking things again.

I calm myself down and open my eyes again.
I move forward, slowly walking.
With each steps,

Feels heavier, and heavier.

I stop in front of the statue and kneeled down.
Clasping both of my hands together and bowing down.
I've never done this..

But I guess there's a first in everything?

"My God,"

"I am sorry for my sins with all my heart."

I stop for a bit, regaining my composure and breathing out slowly.

Every word seems to pierce into my heart, slowly, and painfully.

"In choosing to do wrong and failing to do good, I have sinned against You Whom I should love above all things,"

This is getting uncomfortable.

"I firmly intend,"

It feels like my heart is getting clawed at..

"With Your help, to do penance,"

It burns.

"To sin no more,"

It burns, so much.

"And to avoid whatever leads me to sin."

How much longer till my soul finally melts..?

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