Blesiv My Bsf!

chapter56

Nicole pov
N:yes you guys Alex is currently dating a beautiful wonderful woman named

Priscilla came up to the camera
P:ahh thank you
N:ha no problem so they are dating
P:I'm gonna be downstairs
Ag:same
He left
N:welp he left me
N:so as I was saying they are officially dating yes it hurts deep down but they both deserve each other Alex is a very good man and kind a gentleman and Priscilla is a definition of perfect I deserve nothing but the best for them and  I guess I have to move on you know and you guys don't say "oh  he dumped her" it wasn't like that we talked and he made the decision and I just agreed with him I got my heart broken but you know we all have to move on in some point yes everyone goes through a break up yes I'm going through one right now you see these bags under my eyes it's because I have been stressed over you guys I have also gotten a lot of hate recently and that just makes it even more hard to move on
Also something I wanna say I currently finished school and I guess I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life I guess everything has changed its not what was planned I know I just think I will never get to love someone the same anymore stop Nicole shut up plssss ok you guys I'm gonna end this video umm yes I'm gonna take a break while i heal and then I will be back I will only post on my Instagram story or Snapchat but other than that I'm gonna end it right her I luv you guys and don't forget that bye

I said as I turned off the camera and put everything up

A:you really mean that
N:yes Alex I love you so
,so much but you love her as much as I love you and I want to see you happy don't care what I feel I'm just happy for you
A:I'm sorry and thank you

He said giving me a friendly hug
N:,it's fine but Alex....
A:yes.
N:I never got to get my last kiss
Ale looked at me and then turned and left I fell in the floor leaned against my bed and hugged my knees and silently cry wow I wish everything I over the pain the hurt but it will never be the same I got up and decided to clean out my closet I put on spandex shorts and a croped hoodie I locked my door and turned my led light white and turn on my speaker and put my sad music wasn't really in the mood for my hype up playlist I went to my closet and grabbed an empty bag and picked up all the trash and organized my shoes I went to the top where my shirts where and found Alex shirts I decided to give you I stuck every thing back in my closet and closed it I guess it's not the right time
I went and changed into a black long sleeve tight shirt and put it on after I edited my video I unlocked my door cause mabye someone might come in and finished editing my video and post on every social media say "posted a new video:(" I then fell asleep

The next morning I woke up to hear nobody in the house I went downstairs to see but nobody was there I called everyone's name and nobody answered
I grabbed my keys and put on shoes and walked outside into my car I drove I didn't know where to go but the beach as I got there I parked I stayed in the parking lot as I thought that spot right there was the spot Alex asked me to be his girlfriend as tears poured down my faced I was looking at the Beautiful diamond pink ring Alex had gave me he broke the promise he did and I'm hurt it's all gone my happiness my whole life is falling apart little by little I put my head down as I cried all my anger put
N:he never liked you bitch fucken piece of shit your a fuck up nobody likes you

(PS your beautiful just the way your are:)
As that happen i put the ring down and saw my blade I grabbed it and wanted to end it once and for all I cut I cut way more than anything lines of blood were every where I grabbed my towel and dried it off

I just drove home

I went inside and saw everyone
Al:where the Fuck were
N:nun of your business
Al:Nicole I'm sorry about
N:LOOK I don't care leave me alone I'm hurt I'm heartbroken I'm dead inside but nobody understands how I feel all you guys take me as a fuck up a piece of shit a crazy bitch just because I have feelings and Alejandro you hurt me everytime I make a mistake all you do is scream at me making me feel bad don't get me wrong I love you guys but sometimes I just don't have anyone by myself tell me everything will be ok and I'm tired I'm tired of fighting every day you don't want to know how many times I have been thinking that maybe I should just fall a bridge and wish I never opened my eyes again or maybe cut to deep I have also got hate on social media nobody seems to care comments every day are post "your ugly" "your fat" "you should maybe eat less"
"Kill yourself" "die" "everything will be better with out you"  you see and this just gets to me but nobody wants be here but when I'm not there you guys make a big deal about it no I'm done I'm tired of living this maybe you guys don't care but then it will be better....if I just leave this world and you guys won't see me again and Alex I love you but I guess you broke the promise idk if you lost feelings or I'm not good enough or maybe I'm just an annoying bitch but you could of told me instead of cuting me off and Agustin I love you and your the only one who deeply wish I was better but I guess everyone has different opinions but I'm tired
P:not every thing is about you
S:true
N:your right but for now I guess maybe I done with everything thank you and good bye i luv you
I said running upstairs getting my blade and sitting on the floor by my bed......
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