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[JJKxBTS]
Is it my fault that I don't have a crystal yet? No, right? Then why does everyone hate me for it? Even our band is loosing fans because of me....maybe if I leave.....then things would be fine.....? '...
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Jungkook's POV
The day after BTS went to search him
I am going to deliver the notes today. I left granny's house at the crack of dawn so that the hyungs don't see me.
It was about an hour walk because the dorm is located in the city center and granny lives in the more peaceful part of seoul. I sighed as I kept the notes on their door steps. I still wanted to say goodbye to them for the last time. 'don't start something that you can't handle, Jeon Jungkook.' my head kept repeating. So I decided to write another note for them.
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To all my hyungs,
Hyungs, I know you always used to abuse me to relieve your stress, but I'm sorry. I just couldn't help you anymore. I couldn't take the pain. Sorry for yelling at you. Sorry for being a disappointment. Sorry for being a faggot. Sorry for being fat. Sorry for letting you all down. Sorry that you'll be losing your punching bags.
Thank you hyungs for all the good memories that you all let me have. Thank you for teaching me all that you did. Thank you for making me realise my mistakes.
I now understand why you acted the way you did. I deserved it. But I'll have to leave now. Hope you all also understand my side of the story.
I love you all, but please don't try to find me or contact me. I don't want any kind of apologies. Just...forgive me for holding you all back and all the inconvenience I have caused.
Love you -jungkook.
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I had a few tears in my eyes by the time I finished writing. I tore the paper and wrapped all the other notes in it, kept it in their mailbox and left, without making a single sound.
"Bye hyungs." I whispered, letting all the tears fall down. My mind again filled with all the things that the hyungs had ever told me and I didn't have the courage to turn them down. So I quietly made my way back. "I need to slip ASAP" I whispered to myself again.
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Hoseok's POV
I couldn't sleep all night due to guilt. Whenever I closed my eyes, I could only think of Jungkook. I could see all the times when we were together, when we used to practice peacefully without cussing him out, or when the whole dorm would be filled with his giggles.
