My Hottie Blast From The Past (completed)

not a love story

PEAR

nangingiti ako habang tinitingnan ko si Swan sa side mirror ng sasakyan ko, hindi ko pwede itanggi yung epekto nya sa akin while she is dancing...it was so inviting she turn me on...for the first time she made me feel lust...

i bitterly smile one more glance and i look at the road since it's a bit late few cars are around me...

i get this feeling of being a stranger...it is like you know the place...every stop light that you pass by...but deep inside something did change...it wasn't the road nor the stop lights but it is me who changed...

I'm feeling sorry already but what's bound to happen will happen...soon...

hindi ko napansin na nasa tapat na ako ng mansion

nagmamadali akong pumasok sa loob nakita ko agad ang mama ko na for sure kausap ang papa

"ma calm down pls" sabi ko sa kanya sabay akbay

niyakap nya ako "sabi naman ng tito ni Danny ok na ang kapatid mo pero di pa daw gumigising"

"Danny???"

"oo anak ang batang Adriano kasama nya kasi si Apple ng mag allergy sya"

marahan ko inaya si mama maupo sa sofa "ma are you ok that Apple is getting so close of that Adriano girl?"

she look at me na parang bang anung ibigsabihin ko o anung mali kung maging malapit si Apple kay Danny

"Ma remember when i told you about this Christian?" tumango lang si Mama "she is Christian"

she widen her eyes na parang hinihingi nito na bawiin ko ang sinabi ko

sorry dear sister...i know na hindi ko dapat pangunahan si Apple sa ganitong bagay but this is what siblings do blew up secrets to their parents

"kailan pa?" halos pabulong na sabi ng mama ko

"sa totoo lang ma it was quite long those times that Apple lock out her self sa room nya it was that Adriano's fault"

naiiyak na yumakap sya sa akin but what she told me stun me at hindi ko inexpect...

"anak mahal ko kayo ng kapatid mo if your sister is happy with her then i think i should be... I'm your mother I'm just here to guide both of you not to make you someone that your not...and being gay doesn't make you less than a person" but still she is crying...

"ma so ok lang sainyo ito?" subok na tanong ko

humiwalay sya ng yakap sa akin she look at me in the eyes i see pain but then there is the familiar look of love "it is not ok and it is not right anak but who i am to judge my own daughter...mahal ko kayo higit pa sa anu pa mang dahilan...sa akin kayo ng-galing at hindi ang sexual preference ni Apple o kahit sayo ang makakapagpabawas ng pagmamahal ko at pangunawa"

on that blissful moment i thank God for giving me a mother like her...she is everything that Apple and I was not...

"mama i hope wag mo sabihin kay Apple na alam mo na"

"Anung secreto nyo?" boses ng dad sabay pa kami lumingon ng mama sa kanya

"Toots ginulat mo kami secret nga deh secret lang" asar ni mama sa papa

alam ko na hindi pa handa ang mama sabihin sa papa kaya i just smiled...umakyat muna sila at nagready na para pumunta kami ng hospital...

i send a msg to Swan letting her know na on the way na ako sa hospital na bukas na lang kami magkita sa office...

nang makarating kami sa hospital saglit akong natigilan...that smell of hospital give me those unwanted memories...

"tulungan nyo po ako..." yun lang ang nasabi ko sa dalawang matanda bago ako nawalan ng malay