My Hottie Blast From The Past (completed)

stick with the plan

PEAR

nakatingin ako sa labas ng office ko kapag gabi since nasa 10th floor ako ng building namin over looking ang city lights ilan beses na tumutunog ang cp ko but i never bother to look i know na isa lang ang nagpapasabog ng inbox ko...i sigh... hindi maiwasan maalala ko ang last sesssion ko kay Oli...

"this is our last session" bungad nya pagpasok ko pa lang ng unit nya sa totoo lang nagulat ako sa sinabi nya but i did not say a word i just sat on the same couch and look at the same wall clock.

"Pear did you hear me?" nakangiting sabi nya sa akin

i nod then look at her and give her a small smile

"di mo ba ako tatanungin why?"

i mentally rolled my eyes pwede naman nya sabihin na lang "why?"

her smile widen "kasi i think your better now than before hindi naman ako talaga ang tutulong sayo to move on ciempre andito lang ako to guide you but over all its on you"

move on???

in my head i smile in triumph nagawa ko sya paniwalain na ok na ang lahat sa akin...

"hows ur sleep last night?"

it was good...then i remember her warm embrace and how she made me feel...like i am safe...nangiti ako kasi as if naman kaya nya ako protektahan kung sakaling my mananakit sa akin

"wow is that a genuine smile???" boses ni Oli that made me immediately frown

"no" i said in formal tone "what i mean is yes i had a good sleep last night"

"how about those nightmares?" she said while writing notes

napaisip ako ang tagal na mula nung huli ako nanaginip...hindi na ako nanaginip ng nakaraan hindi ko alam kung kelan nagsimula at kung panu natapos...pero...those dreams are over...bakit my pait akong nararamdaman bakit pakiramdam ko nabago ako ng hindi ko namamalayan...tanga ka Pear...you need to focus...need to stick with the plan...

"care to tell me what your thinking right now?" she said with that annoying smile

"matagal na akong hindi binabangungot ng nakaraan" sabi ko n lang instead na sabihin ko ang nasa isip ko

"that's good it means you are really moving on" she said in her cheerful tone...the cheerful tone na lagi kong naririnig kay Swan kahit masungit ako she made me feel na ok lang magalit ako kasi at the end of the day she is there for me.

"panu mo nasabi na nakamove on ako?panung alam mo pero ako....hindi ko napapansin?" halos pabulong na ang huli kong nasabi

"in your aura" she said while standing up and making tea

"aura???anu ka espiritista??" nagtatakang tanong ko

natawa sya at inabot ang tasa ng tea sa akin "hindi but when you came here for the first time i understand your Mom's fear there is something in you...undeniably your beautiful,but there is darkness in you...in your eyes all i can see a blank person you seems lost and lonely...as our session went by hindi ko alam but you change alot"

i sip in the cup of tea hindi ko naiintindihan ang sinasabi nya kinapa ko ang sarili ko oo aaminin ko lately i feel strange....could i possibly truly falling in lo-----NO!!!

"sa totoo lang hindi ko talaga napapansin" ngumiti ako sa kanya

"oh kita mo na your smiling...noon kahit anung emosyon wala akong nakikita sayo...para kang bata na takot but now even sa mga kulay ng damit mo it shows"