notion • john murphy

LUNA'S LETTER.

Dear Luna kom Flokru,

You were the angel that clouded my dreams.

How dramatic, I know. But it's true. When we were younger, I wondered if you ever noticed the way I looked at you. I wondered if you ever returned the looks and I was too blind to see them. I wondered if you'd ever tell me that you felt what I did, and that you'd like more.

We sparred, we laughed. You taught me things I'll never forget and told me stories I smile about in my thoughts. I liked holding your hand, I liked feeling the vibration of your laugh while I leaned against your chest, I liked running my fingers through your hair—it was always soft. You would always smile. Sometimes you would hum, I never knew what you would be humming, but it was always nice; beautiful. You. You're beautiful.

I never understood the feelings, never even knew what they were. I had never felt that way with anyone then. Of course, it's different now, with John.

What I feel for him is different to what I felt for you. But that doesn't mean that it was nothing.

It confused the hell out of me—it was always had—but I understand it now. And I think you do too. We don't have to talk about it, because personally I wouldn't exactly know what to say.

If I do die though, as unfortunate as it is, it'll be worth it if you live. Please live. Please be happy, my LuLu.

So, I'll say it. I love you.

Love,
   Sayah.

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a/n

hello again :)
i miss everyone omg n people
are RE-READING?? GUYS. STOOOOPP
i dont deserve you guys

okay so updates:
- every now n then i work on what
i can with the time jump n its little moments etc.
little hints: sayah n murphy do be going thru it
but it will be okay :)

- i did watch season seven. n my reaction
to that.... well lets not get into it.
bc what the hell. WHAT THE HELL

- ive realised that you
guys go INSANE for the "please stay"
moments n the "his sayah/her murphy"
moments which is SO CUTE.

- ive also seen people want bellamy x sayah content?? romantically??? welllllllll ill tell u a lil sumn.
between the events of season 2 n 3
there was in fact a little lip action between them.
i literally wrote it N LOST IT. THANK YOU WATTPAD.
long story short, theyre both like ???no no no this is wrong
n realise that sayah was just acting out
bc she missed her murph. fair.
SO YES. I ADMIT IT THERE
WAS A LIL SUMN THERE

- i am VERY busy with school so i try my best w this book but i promise i will defeat school n defeat depression (ill try) n i will get dis book back alive. cuz it struggling to breathe n it needs my love.

I LOVE U GUYS THANK U FOR ALL ZE LOVE ON DIS BOOK MWAH MWAH not to be cheesy or anything but yeah i dont deserve you guys. damn
STREAM SEASON ONE OF THE 100 THE BEST SEASON OKAY BYE THANK U <3