I was back at my house as Beau brought me back here.
I walked into the house with him by my side.
"I'll stay over El." He said.
"No it's okay I want to be alone and you have a date with Vicky tonight, have fun." I told him giving him a hug which he returned as he drove off. I closed house door as Matthew was just staring at me and my mom was coming to me to hug me but I stopped her.
"I just want to be alone." I said emotionless.
I walked upstairs to my room and shut the door falling to the floor crying my eyes out. Holding all the tears I've been holding this whole year, on how shitty my life is being. People make fun of me of my weight, I got an eating disorder which I need to start taking my pills for because I haven't taken it for a while. I'm in love with my best friend but he doesn't love me like that, he has a girlfriend, and most of all my friend from day one is dead, is fucking dead. He had cancer this whole time and I didn't even notice, he was doing weed and getting beat up and I didn't even know. He loved me and I was too blind.
I grabbed the nearest thing around me as I smashed it against the wall as I screamed.
Why does my life have to be like this.
I heard the door opening as I didn't bother checking on who it was as he sat down beside me silent.
"I'm sorry Ella." He said.
I looked at him so he could see my messed up face as he frowned.
He pulled me into a hug which I was weird out at first but I really needed it. I cried in his chest as he held me tight.
"He's gone Matty, he's fucking gone, and my whole life is messed up." I cried as he rubbed my back trying to calm me down.
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I want to be more than Friends. (Beau Brooks fanfic)
Fanfiction"I love you best friend!" Beau said acting silly. He turned his back to me as he began walking to his girlfriend Vicky. "I love you too, but more than best friends." I whispered as he was already making out with her.
