Falling For Him

Chapter 32

SAM

She definitely does not like me.

It was so clear from her reaction. I mean, she was glad to have her bestfriend back but it still felt weird. Maybe I'm just interpreting this wrong but usually when something like this happens, people talk about their feelings instead of ignoring them.

Okay, it's my fault. I'm the one that has been ignoring her. I'm not ready to have the conversation with her yet because I know she doesn't feel anything towards me romantically and I need to prepare myself to take the news well.

I definitely need to-

"Hey Sam?"

I look away from my ceiling and see Caleb standing in my doorway. I uncross my arms from the back of my head and sit up so Caleb can join me on the bed. He took his jacket off and threw it on my chair before plopping down on my bed and making himself comfortable.

By cuddling with me.

"Get off me you idiot" I swatted him away and he began to pout before he sat up and sighed.

Oh this is serious Caleb, I should be worried.

"What's up? What's with the sighing?" I asked.

He gave a small smile and shook his head.

"It's nothing. I spoke to Beth today" he said with such calmness that it scared me.

"Oh no, Caleb what did you tell her?" This idiot probably told her how I feel and made everything even worse.

Actually, she already knows how I feel since what happened on the ferris wheel was pretty clear.

He laughed, "it's nothing serious, relax. I just asked her if she had spoken to you recently because you've been down in the dumps these past few days"

I facepalmed.

"Caleb, I'm the one that has been ignoring her. I just can't face her when I know what she's going to say, so I'm delaying it as much as I can" I fall back onto my bed and cover my face with my hands.

The bed dipped next to me and I turned to my side to see Caleb staring right at me.

"Creepy much?" I raised an eyebrow.

"What's really going on with you Sam? You never usually care when you're rejected, I don't get why this is different"

My head snapped to the side and I stared at him in disbelief.

"Different? Of course it's different you idiot! It's her, Ellie. It's always been her, since we were kids. My feelings for her are real and I know she's going to get scared and run away. I can't do it, Caleb. I don't want to screw up the chance of being in her life, even if that means I have to stay in the friendzone. She's too important for me."

Caleb stared at me with wide eyes and mouth hung open before he started laughing, obnoxiously might I add.

I huffed and looked away.

Of course he thinks it's a joke.

"Then why don't you tell her this?"

"Are you insane? She's going to hate me"

He scoffed, "no she won't. I think she'll appreciate the truth rather than you hiding from her all the time and avoiding any communication. I know I would"

For once in his life, he actually makes sense.

I gave him a small smile, "thanks Caleb"

He waved his hand at me as if it was nothing before grabbing his jacket and leaving me alone with my thoughts.

"This is about Beth huh?"

Nevermind, I'm not alone anymore.

Alex made his way to my bed and sat on the edge with a silly smile on his stupid face.

"Yeah it is, what is it to you?" I got up from my bed and made my way to my closet and pulled out a hoodie.

"So the reason why you've been sulking all this time is because of a girl. Who would've thought?" He laughed and laid back on my bed. I shook my head and made my way to the bathroom so I could freshen up.

"Look Alex, you're my brother and I love you but you need to shut the hell up before I make you" I retort and proceed to splashing cold water on my face.

If I want things to be okay, I have to talk to her and tell her everything.

"Okay well if you ever want to talk, I'm here for you. Also, mom wants you downstairs so you can eat properly" he scolded me before leaving my room.

After putting on some jeans and socks, I walked over to my dresser and noticed a small bracelet.

I smiled and shook my head softly at the memory attached to the bracelet.

"Hey Sammy, look what I found!" I look over to see Ellie holding up some thread.

"Uh it's thread Ellie"

"I know that idiot, but do you know what we can do with it?" She questioned sassily.

I shook my head no and she huffed.

"Of course you don't. We're going to make friendship bracelets out of it!" She exclaimed in excitement before rushing over to me and pulling me down to the floor.

"Since the thread is blue, can you paint it purple for me? I want them to be different colours because they look better"

I looked at her and gave her a massive smile.

"Yeah I love painting!" I grabbed the paint and paint brush before carefully painting the thread.

"Yeah even though you're horrible at it" she snorted.

I have to talk to her.

She means too much to me to not have her in my life.

I'll respect her decision but I have to atleast try my best.

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