Deanna
We arrived in Balesin less than two hours after Dad's call.
Jessica was eerily silent.
I wanted her to ask the million dollar question.
But she chose to be quiet the whole time.
Ayoko naman na ako mauna magsabi ng malutong at malakas na "HINDE!!!"
But will she believe me? Given my reputation to her...
Sino kaya yung tarantadong yun?
I know that it's not my Dad.
Si Luzviminda nga na bumuo ng rebelyon para wasakin kami eh hindi niya magawang ipapatay ng ganun, yung asawa pa kaya?
I admit I asked some men to follow Senator Robles around but I never asked any of them to kill him.
Especiallly when I realized he is nothing but a puppet.
Pero sino?
Is it one of us?
One of the Colony?
I know that Dad is in the process of finding it out at the moment.
Dad is calling...
"It's Miguel Sy, Deanna."
Fuck.
"What shall we do Dad?"
Kasalanan ng isang Colony, kasalanan naming lahat.
Damn!
"We can't surrender him...
Not anymore...
Ten minutes ago he was begging me to kill him. And that coward of a man..."
Putangina...
No more words.
Dad couldn't continue because of mixed emotions.
I couldn't answer also because I can't find decent words.
Dad hung up the phone ten minutes ago. He answered another call.
I am staring at the ceiling here in our grand sofa in the living room.
A couch that can accommodate ten persons.
Yet I am alone.
I feel literally and figuratively alone.
Chinese people even during the time of dynasties are capable to kill themselves.
It can be because of guilt, hopelessness or the thought that they deserve it.
May isa pa pala...
Sweet escape.
Tanginang Miguel Sy, hindi na hinintay na balatan siya ng buo ni Luzviminda.
Hindi man lang ako nakasapak kahit isa.
What Dad only found out about their connection was, Luzviminda is his wife's friend. Kinaibigan niya si Phoebe Sy obviously para tiktikan ang negosyo nila.
Haay...
Drugs.
What's more enraging than this illegal bullshit?
