𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒌. | Kiyoomi Sakusa x Reader

Get your thoughts together

Sakusa and you gaze at Osamu, waiting for an answer. Osamu ruffles his hair and exhales. "I care about Y/N but it's not in a way where I can straightforwardly say I like her. She's someone I can rely on and open up to. I guess you can say I see her as a best friend. Love may eventually come. Or maybe it won't." Your stiff shoulders relax when you listen to Osamu explain his emotions.

"She already rejected me twice. So, I'm sure whatever small chance of love I feel is slowly being crushed." Osamu turns his attention over to you, a small smile on his face. "I think it's a good idea for you two to spend more time together. Y/N's already taken a liking to you anyway, Sakusa. She told me you seem to know the right things to say. Something I have a hard time doing." Exhaling under his breath, he flicks his eyes over to Sakusa.

"O-Osamu! You didn't have to tell him that." You lower your eyes, feeling embarrassed.

"Did you really say that Y/L/N?" Sakusa turns his attention over to your blushing face. To avoid answering the question, you down the alcohol in your cup. The warmth from the alcohol spreads from your throat down to your chest. Osamu widens his eyes when he watches you knock back the drink in a hurry. "Hey, drink in moderation Y/N."

"I'm going to get a refill." Murmuring under your breath, you excuse yourself from the two and head inside. Osamu and Sakusa silently watch her disappear. A soft chuckle rumbles from Sakusa's throat. He swirls the alcohol in his cup and takes a sip. "She did that on purpose to avoid the question. Yet, I answered honestly." Osamu shakes his head, exhaling under his breath.

"You really don't have any feelings for Y/L/N, Osamu?" Sakusa looks up towards the clouded moon. Osamu grows quiet. He stands beside Sakusa and stares up towards the night sky. "I know we're adults now and I should man up to my emotions. But, I'm terrified of the idea of falling in love. I don't want to ruin what Y/N and I have right now. My business is going well and I just want to focus on that for now."

Sakusa quietly listens to Osamu. Out of the twins, Osamu isn't the one Sakusa spends his time with often. So hearing something so serious from Osamu takes him aback. "Are you really okay with that?" Sakusa turns to look at Osamu's distant expression. His eyes are conflicted while his face remains neutral. "Will you be okay if Y/L/N's attention is pulled away by another guy?"

"We're coworkers first before we're friends." Osamu bluntly answers.

"Really? Your expression says otherwise." Sakusa notices the furrowed brows hidden under Osamu's bangs. "I think you're trying to talk yourself out of your emotions Osamu." Osamu's eyes waver when he looks over to Sakusa, his lips pressing together. He's unable to retort back to.

"Well, get back to me when you do understand your feelings. You'll see me around more often." Sakusa leaves Osamu to rejoin the party inside. He braces himself for the pounding music when he opens the screen door.

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You quietly watch the party from one corner of the apartment after tossing away your cup. Several faces are unknown to you. The feeling of uncomfortableness seeps in and you wonder if you should go back to Osamu to return his suit jacket before leaving for the night. "So where's your refill, Y/N?" The familiar voice of Osamu catches your attention when you look to the right. He points to your empty hands. Scrunching your nose, you avert your eyes to avoid his. "Why did you have to embarrass me in front of Sakusa."