IN A MEMORY

MY THOUGHTS

CHAPTER 11
MY THOUGHTS
The course of the world,
The untold stories,
Mysteries never knew,
Yet so important,
The closeness of being,
The importance of knowledge,
Of the spirit and soul,
Not many are concerned,
Yet so relevant,
I choose faith over facts,
Ignorance I prefer to truth,
How painful the results,
I do not intend to know,
The beauty of life,
The achievements I have,
My only concern,
Yet so vanishing they are,
Love, hate everywhere,
Fate, destiny I believe,
Yet the latter so vital,
Be with me, have me,
I tell death,
Pain, disappointment ambush,
Close my eyes,
Yet not to pray,
But in God, I believe,
Hold on, self-worth,
Escaping my hand,
The pretense, insecurities,
Of the people around,
Don’t discover,
The closure, I choose to ignore,
Be aware of the duties,
Society has assigned,
From the desperation,
Is begotten,
And loathing my mind chooses,
I will let you know,
The answers, but no question,
Has one reply,
Perception is all that matters,
Don’t be afraid of death,
But of an unlived life,
What is life?
How do you live with no regrets?
While consequences,
At the back of the mind?
You appeared to me,
Yet I never heard,
The confessions and warnings,
My heart wants to possess,
Permission I will not give,
Unless you pluck it,
Either way,
I will tell you one day,
Or better yet I will show you,
The quality of existence,
Beliefs untold and unspoken,
Protected by one’s consciousness,
Transmitted like network,
Beheld like love,
Instituted relief,
Multi-dimensional world,
Across the gathering of saints,
Untouched by blemish souls,
You left at an unfortunate time,
When everything didn’t seem,
As it appeared,
You sold the last sheep,
Never thinking of the lions,
Havoc and destruction awakened,
By the unloving hearts,
Chaos and war are their playgrounds,
I lost you when I completely thought,
Your heart I possessed,
Like demons unpredictable,
Tears fell so slowly,
Pain engulfing my being,
Your heart I still hope to behold,
Yet I know it is too late, too fast,
So I let the whirlwind,
Sweep you away,
Leaving scars unseen,
But felt within,
Your pain I ignored,
But not meaning I never felt,
Time moving too slowly,
To the second I will feel,
Be careful my dear,
For wolves in sheep's clothing,
Anywhere and everywhere,
Too close yet far,
Ready to distract the heart,
So precious I would know,
Here we are right now,
Space between unbelievably big,
To build a plan so beautiful,
Yet so full of memories unwanted,