Villanelle x you fanfiction

Fake sleeping

Previous chapter - I turn over and look at the time - 3:17 AM. V's phone rings a second later and my heart drops to my stomach as I know it's Konstantin ready to take her for her next job. Usually if he comes at an odd hour of the night, it's urgent. I watch as V answers her phone and tells Konstantin she'll let him in in a minute. She puts her phone on her bedside table and lies back down, on her back and puts her hands on her face as she sighs. She then sits up and wipes the tears off her face before leaving the room to let Konstantin in.
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When she leaves the room, I feel a weight on my chest and tears start streaming down my face at the realization that that felt like the closest we've ever come to a breakup. But I force myself to pull myself together and go into the toilet to grab my bathrobe and walk outside.

I walk out and see V and Konstantin bickering. I wince at the sight of Konstantin cause I always associate seeing him with V leaving, therefore I have a natural aversion to him. He looks at me and smiles insincerely as though he was obligated to be hospitable towards me in my house. I smile back and walk to the opposite corner of the room, arms crossed, I sit down.

"Why can't I leave in 2 hours??" V asks Konstantin, eyes wide in anger. "Because you have to be there before he goes into work" Konstantin says nonchalantly. "I WILL get there before he goes into work even if I leave in 2 hours, Konstantin" V's seething. "You have to leave in 15 minutes, Villanelle. Your train leaves then" he says. I feel my heart fall to my stomach at the thought of V having to leave in the middle of the unfinished, unresolved conversation we had.

She finally agrees after a few more seconds of back and forth arguing and Konstantin sits down on the couch as she puts her hands to her face and groans in anger.

I walk to the opposite end of the room, near our bedroom. "V?" I say calling out to her, unsure of whether or not she even wants to talk to me right now. I see Konstantin stare at me as if to convey that I should not distract her. "I just need a few minutes with her" I tell Konstantin, my voice dripping with hostility.
I extend my hand out to V and she walks to me and slides her fingers in mine as I take her into our room and close the door behind us.
Inside the room I stand, not knowing what to say or where to start. There's so much I need to say at once. I look up at V and notice she's watching me nervously. Fiddling with her hands.

"How long will you be gone for?" I ask, breaking the silence. I see her about to answer me and I say "Don't be gone long" she takes a step towards me and says "I'll do everything I can to be back by today..in a few hours" she says. I move closer to her, cautiously and slide my hands in hers as she looks at me. "Have you been crying?" She whispers, lifting my face so I make eye contact with her. "I was just a little upset" I admit, wiping my face. "V, I can't explain to you how much I need you in my life. I HATE life without you." I say, my voice cracking and tears escaping my eyes. She tries to move closer to me and say something but I move away and continue "I don't know how to explain any of it but even though there are so many signs that we are being naive with this level of commitment, it's what I want, you are who I want. And none of the risks I'm taking scare me as much as not being able to be with you" Tears are gushing down my face at this point and I'm doing everything I can to seem calm in spite of it. She moves close to me again and pulls me into a tight hug. Her head resting on my shoulder as I cry and do everything I can to stop. She sits on the bed and pulls me onto her lap and starts stroking my hair. I slowly stop crying and I apologize for acting so stupid and I pull myself together and lean in front of her. I hold her by her shoulders and say "listen, you have to focus on the job today. I don't want you to get distracted, just focus. Do it and come back. Do you understand?" I say in an attempt to be firm. She looks at me confused at how quickly I just switched my emotions. I know my heart has gone into survival mode and I have to make sure V does the job well and nobody is going to think of me as a distraction in her life. She stares at me for a long time and then nods slowly, looking at me as if she wants more. Perhaps a kiss or a hug. I stand there unsure of whether I should give in and give her a kiss, maybe even say I love her? Or if I should just let it go for now and deal with her and us later but my thoughts are interrupted by Konstantin knocking on the door. "Villanelle! We have to go" he says as one side of V's lip curls up, she clenches her jaw and rolls her eyes, truly expressing her anger. "I'll be out in a minute" She says, her Russian accent dripping with sarcastic excitement. She looks to me one last time, her eyes questioning. "You'd better get ready" I say, trying to sound nonchalant and not fully communicating how unsettled I feel. She looks at me, eyes wide as though she's trying to say something to me. I cup her face with my hand and she closes her eyes and leans into my hand.

"VILLANELLE!" Konstantin screams from outside. "Come on, you should get going" I say, moving my hand away from her face and crossing my arms. She looks at me a bit longer and then gets up to change. She walks into the bathroom and closes the door, I inform Konstantin that she's just getting changed and I get into bed and switch off the light so as to avoid goodbye.

I hear Villanelle walk out of the bathroom and quietly grab her stuff. She then sits on the edge of the bed as I pretend to sleep and she moves my hair behind my ears before placing a kiss on my head. And with that she leaves.

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