beautiful Life

DREAM

I wrap my arms around her neck as the think of losing him.
I lean away from him, I see his facinating beautiful eyes peering me.
Owen- what.
me- he call my name, and my heart beat starts to pick up speed and I feel it could be snap out of my chest.
and I choke and my tears vigorously rolling down my cheeks.
he again asked me Jennifer what happened.
I ask him are you real, and my body immediately frozen because I need his answer .
and he nod her head.
my borrow furrow again and I shake my head.
and he tried to hold my hand and I jerking his hand away from me.
"no! that's doesn't make any sense".
I argue him.
"how could you be here?why you care?
I visciously snarl at him through my tears.
he coaxed me "shh" calm," shh" he silence me.
but I don't buy .
and my anger rise,.
you know, you messed me up.
you really did.
I lay awake at night. trying to imagine.
what I did wrong, why did you leave me, fukking asshole.
why did I meet you.
why did life put you on my path.
for you to just leave me. and to leave me broken.you make my life hell.
what am I supposed to realise? that I make mistake.
it's the best mistake i've ever made.
but that mistake left me broken.
you know I am lonely.
he softly defends.

my love"shh" he silence me and he laid me down on the mattress.
and he lay down beside me on the mattress.my gaze softens slightly but my voice doesn't .
you know you are senseless person who first makes love with her partner and leave her.i crock
he opens his arms to me again and I childishly shake my head in refusal.
long sigh leaves his lips, and he looks so helpless.
he pressed his body against mine and he run his face against my neck.
I calms down at her touch and relaxed under her cuddling gesture.
he can hear is my breath slightly return to normal.
the warmth of his body offers me is so comforting and I feel content for the first time since, he left me.
we lay in the darkness, nothing intrupting the silence except for the sounds of our breathing. my body shifts beside him and he turns to face me, laying on his side.
I grab her hand and leads it to my chest.
and my heartbeat increased at her touch.
our eyes meet and I stare into her eyes curiously.
I ask him.. please tell me.....are you real... because... this... not make any...sense.... please... don't..play... with...me.
you know...I look at you... and see ... the....rest...of my life....in..front..of my..eyes.
Owen-i.am..sorry...for..everything..i did...because..of.me...you..are.in pain i am sorry( he whisper)
you know god heard your prayers.
god can feel your pain.he knows that you are overwelmed, exhausted, and worried about how everything is going to work out.
god is saying to you today, "trust me" I will get you through this .