hi,
I'm Jenifer
this is life, my beautiful fucking life.
life....shit is gonna happen.
it's gonna get complicated.
we're gonna replase. we're gonna need time- outs.
we're gonna be weak. and we're gonna be strong. we're gonna lose our shit and yell f...
it's odd because I can hear his voice calling out to me, but I'm not sure where I am.
this place I'm at, it manipulates my mind. there's nothing that I'm certain of here, and I don't like it. everything is foggy.
all I know is there's something about his voice that's keeping me afloat in my thoughts.
a bright ray of light is hitting me directly in the face as I try to peel apart my eyes. Jenifer" a booming voice says continue to call me, shaking me lightly. and a loud groan escape my lips...." no..no..no..no...i cries out..my hands are shaky and my entire body feels uncertain, I jolt forward placing one hand on my chest trying to get enough air.
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i focus on my surroundings. I scan the bedroom. and my eyes fall on owen.laying beside me... relief washes over me... but...
owen...i speaks aloud my throat starts to burn, and heartbeat speeds up, and my eyes burn and tears keep rolling down my face.
what' s wrong? owen gushes as he notices me sitting upright in the bed
my stomach tightens, and my lungs close up, my tears rush to my eyes faster.
his beautiful eyes fallen on my face, making me feel as if I'm under close scrutiny. I glance up at him and my bottom lip starts to Trimble.
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naturally his arms wraps around me in a comforting gesture. he coos me...shh..shh.
he again speak what happened...I shake my head... and continusily crying.
what the matter"? he repeat.
me - owen...
me- baby....help..help.. me owen- hmm...yes.. Jenifer.
me- baby...I can't breath... please.. baby ( crying hard) talking is to hard, my heart burning and my eyes are dengerously blurry with tears.
baby...I can't..I can't... breath. I can't.... nausea washes over me
I lean into his shoulder. my hand clenches around his hoodie. please... don't leave me... please.. don't... I'm scared
he rocks me soothing... Jenifer... I'm here. I'm not going to. leave you.... everything is okay... Jenifer.
owen- Jenifer... everything is okay I'm here.. Jenifer.
I keep.. crying....I.. don't know.... what.. happened.... with..me. I... can't.. breath.. I'm not.. okay.( grumbling) owen- Jenifer.... hear my heartbeat.. just focus on that. you will be alright..no one can hurt you. you are don't going to lose me. I love you.
me- babe... please...
owen- hmm... Jenifer..I'm.here..i will stay here okay? just breath. I'm okay.. you are okay..we are okay.
me- hmm....hmm
owen- you are everything to me.
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he lay me back down onto the bed. my fists is still clenched tightly around his hoody. as he hover over me he swipe my tears but they again fall from my eyes, he kiss my forehead.. and kiss me on the nose. I love you" he remind me for the thousandth time.
I'm here.. me- hmm...hmm...relief flows through me and my breathing return to a normal pace.. slowly. gently he leans onto the pillow. I shifting comfortably into his side.
owen- get some rest.. don't be scared... I'm here ok.
