hikari means light

11

TW
MENTIONS OF
- PANIC ATTACKS
- ABUSE TRAUMA
- SWEARING

THIRD PERSON POV
"Izuku hop off nemuri please!" Yamada called out for the boy scared for the woman's life.

"Problem child she isn't a threat she just stupid"
Aizawa explains already tired of her.

"Who is she" izuku growled scaring the woman below him and the three others in the room.
Everyone tensed at the tone he was using.

Izuku was seriously going to take her out if she was a threat.

Before midnight could speak hitoshi does for her.

"Zuku its alright! Its midnight the R rated hero her name is nemuri kayama. She basically our auntie"
Hitoshi explains as he walks closer to the boy.
Izuku loosens his grip on nemuri as he does his vigilante persona as well.
Hitoshi walks up to izuku and pulls him away looking him straight in the eye looking for anything that says he isn't okay.

Izukus slips out of his deku persona. He always feels in control and confident with his mask on but he doesnt have it anymore. He doesnt have his mask anymore. Hes nothing now but a depressed vulnerable child.

IZUKU POV
I messed up
I messed up
I messed up
They're going to hate me now!
Oh no no no this is bad!
Theyre either going to kick me out and send me to jail or they're going to.......punish me.

Oh God I hop its only light.
Maybe they'll be nice and push me down, kick and punch me.
Hopefully they don't burn me like
father did with his quirk.
What if they use needles and do tests?
Oh no i have no idea what they're going to do but im scared!

Stupid fucking childhood trauma

Im not the vigilante 'deku' anymore yes they still know close to nothing about me and ill probably try to sneak out anyways but still.
Im completely vulnerable around them I haven't been around adults in around nine years unless I'm running from heros but now I'm in their HOUSE.

And I just ATTACKED one of their friends plus she's a pro hero!
Im so dead im so dead im so dead.
I pull away from hitoshi and look at all of the people I had only just recently met with wide eyes.

"I-Im sorry I didn't mean t-to!"
I say while stuttering.

I feel my breathing start to quicken but azaiwa and toshi seem to notice.

"Hey hey zuku its alright. Calm down breathe for me"
Toshi says and goes to grab my shoulders.
I jerk away from his hands and trip over something.

"I-Im sorry! Please dont punish me i-ill do b-better!
I pull my knees up to my chest and grab my my hair squeezing my eyes shut.
I hear aizawas voice.
I can't really tell anymore.
I can bearly hear anything and my vision is blurry when my eyes are open.
I hear something next to me and open my eyes.
I see aizawa crouch down near me, still a few feet away from me.
I wearily look up to him.
By this time im balling my eyes out and can bearly breathe.

"Izuku please calm down im not going to hurt you ok? No one is. You know me. Its aizawa shota aka eraserhead yea? I promise there's no punishment or....... tests? Its alright but is it okay if I touch you?"

I nod my head yes not trusting myself to speak and he engulfs me in a comforting hug.

"Listen to my heart beat izuku. Match your breathing with mine." I did as he told me and I started to calm down.
I think its over now.
My breathing is still rather quick and un-even but its better.

I suddenly become extremely tired, fatigue hitting me. After all, the last time I slept was probably Sunday? (Its Saturday the next week)
Even though it was only an hour its still sleep.
Im still hugging eraserhead which is probably annoying him but I'll apologise later. I feel safe with them. I need to feel safe.

I need.........
Sleep.

AIZAWA POV
I managed to calm down izuku to the point where only soft sniffles can be heard from the small boy cuddled into me, clinging for dear life.
I feel his grip slowly get weaker but he never lets go. His breathing has evened out and small almost unnoticeable snores can be heard telling me hes asleep.

I slowly but carefully get up from the position we are in on the floor, still carrying the small problem child.

We haven't set up his room in the spare room yet so im just going to put him on the couch and let him sleep till its time to eat.
I try to lay him down but his grip tightens around me while he's still asleep.

Dammit im not going to be able to put him down without waking him.
While im thinking i dont notice 'zashi walk up to me.

"Sho dont worry, just sit down with him. Ill have nemuri help me with dinner as a punishment for starting all this, okay?"
My husband says softly not to wake the problem child.

"Mm" I respond only with a hum and sit down making sure both myself and izuku are comfortable so I can watch TV with hitoshi.

'Problem child im going to do everything in my power to make sure you feel safe and happy again. Ill make you a part of our family and you'll smile everyday'

Today's update is smaller than usual but hey its still an update! As you can see we do and will always have big brother shinso bc why not.
I also might stop putting warnings ive already warned everyone in the description so they read at their own risk.

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