𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃 - 𝘐𝘔𝘈𝘎𝘐𝘕𝘌𝘚!

"ease my mind"

most days i wake up with a pit in my chest, i look to the left to check the time. 3:38.

he still wasn't home, no one's beside me. it has been a usual thing waking up to a pillow being left untouched. i don't dare to lay my head on his pillow, secretly hoping he'd come back home and sleep on it

i let out a sigh as i sit myself up, leaning my back to the headboard. i bring my hand up to my mouth when i let out a painful sob. these are thoughts that i can't put to rest, all night i can't seem to stop my mind from worrying

was he secretly cheating on me? has he found someone better? there's a worry that i can't place

every god damn night, i feel restless and quiet won't come. the sound of my sobs is the only this that can be heard throughout our apartment. so i lay there and wait for the sun, wait for him to come through the door. i waited for him to walk through these doors, as he comes up to kiss me on the forehead and say that he misses me

there's a trouble that won't show it's face

suddenly, there was a gentle knock on the door, i wiped my tears away and ran towards the door "baby you're fina- corpse?" i gasped

"y/n! thank god you're okay" corpse sighed in relief moving closer to hug me, at this i backed away from him, his whole face drops as he stares at me with a hurt expression, "a-are you okay?"

"y-you're not gene" i stuttered

"gene? what? y/n, you haven't been answering my texts, i got worried so i came here as fast as i can" he replied nervously looking down at his feet, i gasped when i turned my head around, "corpse it's 5 am! are you out of your mind" i scolded him, but i'm glad he came. i needed someone right now

"i can't sleep, so i texted you- but that's not the point. what's wrong? are you hurt? what happened to.... gene?" he asked, and hesitantly said the last part.

that's one thing about corpse. he was never very fond of gene, well he never really liked him from the start. but whether he liked it or not, gene still is my boyfriend. even though gene can be a bit harsh, i love him. i do.

"c-corpse... am i not enough?" i stared up at him, he looked at me confused, "it's all my fault isn't it?"

i let out a sob as i bring my hand up to my mouth, "y/n, what are you talking about?"

he walked closer towards me, closing the door gently behind him,

"gene's not back yet... he saw my texts but that's it, h-he didn't reply. i'm so worried corpse, i-i don't know what to do! it's all my fault- i-if i'm better he would've come home? would he?" i said, sobbing halfway

corpse moved closer to me as he engulfed me in a hug, i gave in wrapping my arms around his torso, letting out a loud sob. i shut my eyes hugging him closer

i feel myself calming down when i inhale his scent. i feel... oddly at peace

"don't you ever say that it's your fucking fault, you know it's not. and no, you're better than him, don't you dare say that you're not enough over some stupid guy, y/n" he said, frustratingly running his hand through his raven hair

"fuck him, this may sound rough but fuck him, forget him! you know he's not good for you.. why are you still with him? why? god damn it! i would've treated you better than that stupid horse! just fucking why him" his voice cracks at the end

i bring my head up from his chest, staring at him with wide teary eyes, "w-what?" i let go of him

"i'm not repeating my words, y/n" he mumbled, avoiding my gaze

"why didn't you tell me..." i asked, grabbing his hand leading him to my sofa, i sat down pulling him down with me, "c-corpse you know we can't"

"why not?" his voice came out as a whisper, "gene! he-" i started

"i don't care!" he roared, "y/n, i could care less about him! he's not treating you right and you know that! you-"

i cut him off when i slammed my lips into his, oh god, his lips were so soft. it was a bit chapped but i didn't mind.

he seems shocked for a second but he immediately melts into the kiss, pulling me closer to him, "i love you... i have been since forever"

"and you're right" i said after a while as i pulled away from the kiss

"w-what" he asked nervously

"you're right. i'm not happy with him, i didn't know why i didn't think of that sooner. i'll tell him when he gets home" i replied biting back a smile, "but for now, let's get some sleep- no funny businesses sir"

"god you're perfect" he smiled

i stand up holding my hand out for him to grab, corpse pouts at me accepting it as i drag him to my bedroom

"yet?" i gaped at him

"what? oh! oh, shut up you" i said hitting him on his shoulder

"i love you too"

darling only you can ease my mind

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i'm sorry i haven't been active lately, i've been having a writers block, i haven't been sleeping right, my life has been a fucking mess. but that's no excuses.

this was inspired by ease my mind - ben platt, which one of you requested (you know who you are) i hope you liked it🥺

i'll try to write more

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have a nice day/night lovelies 🖤