Ateez Little Space

56-SanHwa : Insecure

Little : San
Caregiver : Seonghwa
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San's POV :
''sannie baby '' i heard a faint voice calling and i opened my eyes to look at the person calling me . It was daddy
'' hey pretty baby '' he said and i smiled at him
'' no good morning for daddy ?'' he pouted sitting me on his lap and i giggled wrapping my arms around his neck and pressed a messy kiss to his cheek
'' goo' mo'ning dada'' i said and he smiled at me before kissing my forehead
'' thank you sweetie ''
I looked out of the window and noticed that it was still a bit dark
'' why it eawly ? '' i whined rubbing my eyes with my fist
'' well darling , it's the MAMA's pre-recording today and we need to get ready '' he said and i whined putting my head on his shoulder
'' i wanna sweep . No go '' i said closing my eyes
'' oh no baby boy , we really have to go , you still need to shower and get dressed ''
'' but daddy ... '' i whined again and he laid me down in the bed and i opened my eyes confused
'' dada nooo '' i laughed loudly when he started blowing raspberries on my tummy
'' you wanted that boy '' he shrugged and started tickling me
'' i wiw do what chu want pwomise ~" i laughed and he stopped
'' that's a good boy '' he said standing up and picked me up
'' let's shower and have breaky with the members '' i nodded and we went in the shower , he helped me undress  and put me in the warm water and i shivered
'' owiiie '' i whimpered and he stroked my hair to calm me down
I played with the toys in there till mu caregiver decided it's time to get out
'' come here bub '' he opened his arms for me and i jumped into them for him to wrap the blanket around me
'' baby boy '' he whispered and kissed my cheek gently ''you are so beautiful''
'' tank chu '' i blushed and he chuckled before carrying me to the room
'' daddy choosed your outfit prince '' he said and i inspected it
'' it pwettyy '' i said holding the grey yellow shirt
'' i wuv it '' i wrapped my arms around his waist
'' i am glad prince '' he smiled running his fingers in my hair
After getting dressed , we walked hand in hand to the kitchen
'' hai '' i greeted my members and i they greeted me back
'' you doing good baby?'' hongjoong asked me and i nodded smiling
'' you ready for today ? '' and i nodded again
'' good boy ''
Before heading to the Mnet plateform , i slipped out of my headspace as we disscussed our stage .
We got out of the van and walked to our dressing room , the staffs welcomed us and after we warmed up  the stylist came to us
'' okay guys , you need to change now''
Once i saw my outfit my body tensed up , it was too revealing  and i didn't work out and that will make me loo-
'' sannie ? '' i turned to my side to look at seonghwa hyung who was eyeing me worriedly
'' why are you crying san-ah ? '' wooyoung asked turning me so i am facing him . I didn't even realised that i was crying till they told me
'' are feeling sick ? '' he asked me again and i just shook my head
'' then what's wrong ? '' the eldest asked again and i started feeling so overwhelmed with all the questions and the reality that i have to face
'' i-i ...'' i started but couldn't finish
'' daddy '' i called in a quiet voice and  looked down at my feet , quiet sobs leaving my lips , i was just scared
'' sannie , baby boy '' i started relaxing when i felt warm arms wrapped around my waist from behind and big hands drawing circles on my tummy
'' you are okay with me honey , jist relax hmmm ? '' seonghwa hyung said gently and started pulling me with him to sit on the couch
'' that's my good boy '' he whispered once i started calming down . His voice never failed to make me feel safe
'' now '' he started once i looked up at him '' tell me honey , what's going on ? '' he asked making me lean on his chest
'' i-i ... '' i was scared to tell him and he nodded to encourage me '' i no weady to show my body , no wowk up dis days '' i said and he sighed
'' sweetheart , you are perfect in every way . You are muscled enough even without working out , look at those sculpted abs of yours hmm ? '' he said patting my abs and i felt at ease '' they are even better than mine '' he said and i shook my head
'' you so good '' i said and put my hand on his chest
'' so you do precious ''
We stayed cuddled up in the couch till he sat up a bit
'' how about we so something love '' he said patting my butt as a sign to make me get down of his lap '' you know daddy didn't work out too right ? '' he asked and i nodded '' that's what we will do '' he said and called the stylist to make his top sleeveless
'' daddy no have to '' i said pouting and he just raised my head to look up at him
'' but daddy wants to '' he said softly which made my heart flutter
'' tank chu'' i said shyly hiding my head in his neck
And like that we got dressed and went on stage
'' sannie baby , if you feel so down or uncomfortable you can tell me okay ? And we will pause , it doesn't matter how many times we have to record as long as you will be fine '' my hyung said rubbing my back comfortingly which made me feel better
'' i am ready '' i said and we walked on stage . It only took us two shots to finish the recording as things went smoother than what we have thought
'' baby boy , come to daddy '' my caregiver said opening his arms for me once we went off stage
'' i am so proud of you petal , you did such an amazing job '' he praised and i sank more in his arms feeling all fuzzy and warm
'' you know we will do now ? '' he whispered and i hummed in a questionning way
'' go home and cuddle all day '' he finished and i giggled happily .
And like that , we did as planned and i felt better about the idea of my outfit since all the members continued to praise me for the good job i did especially seonghwa hyung who kept talking about it in every occasion even our last vlive .