You broke Us

19.

Hobi

"Hey are you okay?" I asked YoonGi

"Yeah I'm fine. This little girls are just having fun bouncing on my bladder" he laughed

"Are you sure? It could be early labor." I asked

"I'm sure. I don't have any pain. I just have to pee a million times a day." He laughed

"I'm sorry." I said

"Hey it's okay. Yeah this was unplanned but these are our babies. I just hope I'm a good dad. I didn't have the best dad growing up and I don't want our daughters to turn out like me" he said with a tear running down his face

"Hey it's okay. You did some stuff but you learned from your mistakes and now you can do better. You'll be able to teach our babies what not to do" I said while hugging

I hate that he feels this guilt. I wish I could take it away.

"Hey stop that crying. Be happy please"

"Yes let's be happy while we spend Christmas with our ex's and their boyfriends" he laughed

"Christmas won't be Christmas without some type of drama. We have two hours to get some kind of dinner ready."

"I ordered food already. But you're going to be the one to pick it up. I can't waddle over there and back." He said with a shine in his eyes

"You know I love you right?" I asked

"Yeah I know. I just wish you loved me more"

"What?" I asked

"I know you love me. But I know you love him more."

I couldn't stop myself from crying. How did he know

"Hey don't cry" he said while wiping my tears "I know you still love me and I know you still love these babies. I just wish that one day you'll love me that way too."

"I don't want to lose you. I love you so much so freaking much you have no idea. I just want to be able to let go of Tae fully." I said

"And you will, one day but for now we have to make it through this dinner. Now please hurry up because our daughters want to eat"

We both laughed. I hope to one day love this man with all my heart.

"I love you YoonGi."

"I know. Now show me that love by getting me food"

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"Daddy you're back. when is papa coming over? It's been forever already and  I miss" Dewon complained

"Love bug he'll be here soon I promise. Can you ask YoonGi to help you wrap this for Papa while I set the table?"

"Course Daddy. Appa YoonGi Daddy said for me to help me wrap Papa's gift" Dewon yelled while running through the living room

Both YoonGi and I looked at each other.

"Baby what did you call him?" I asked

"I called him Appa. He cares for me like you and Papa. And he's giving me Sissy's. I love YoonGi so he's my Appa." Dewon explained as if this was something simple

"You want me to be your Appa?" YoonGi asked

"Yes you're my Appa YoonGi and soon I'll have an Appa Kookie. And then sissy's will be born and maybe Kookie and Papa will have a baby too. But they have to know that all four of you are my daddies and they only get 2 each" she huffed