You broke Us

13.

Hobi

"Babe when can we renovate the guest room?"

"Why would we do that?" I asked

"Where else do you expect the twins to sleep?" YoonGi said so mater of factly

"The room with us. We can get them bassinets" I suggested

"No thank you. I'd rather not have them there. They need their own space and so do we. We can get a monitor so we can watch them and the guest room is right next to  ours so it's not like they'll be on the opposite side of the apartment"

"Sorry I just assumed we'd have them in here since you'll be breast feeding them-"

"I'm not breastfeeding the traditional way. There's two of them. I'll pump milk so that way you can help feed them." He smiled

"I guess that's understandable. Two babies that's a lot of feeding" I laughed

"Yeah. So when are we renovating. I already have ideas but I want us to decorate together." He said while hugging me

Planning for 2 newborns is a lot of work. We already starting buying things and YoonGi got so emotional over prices. I completely forgot how expensive stuff was and we have to buy doubles. I assured him that I'll help out with things. I guess he assumed that because we're dating and not married he was on his own.

I hate that he thought that. I mean  the divorce was hard on him. He cried so much. He kept telling me he felt guilty for everything. He kept saying sorry to me.

I told him it wasn't his fault. I told him that Tae was cheating and when ever I brought that up he would tear up. He would give me this look. I don't know why he looks that way but what ever it is I'm sure he'll tell me.

"Daddy, Yoonie, I'm home!" Dewon yelled

I smiled and heard the sound of her running.

Like always the first thing she did was walk up to YoonGi and hugged his belly.

"Hi babies. I missed you. Did you miss me? Hi YoonGi I miss you too. I brought you some ginger candies. I told grandma that the babies make you sick and she said ginger helps" she smiled

"Thank you. I miss you too and I know the babies did" he replied

"Hi daddy, I missed you. Did you miss me?"

"Of course I miss you. I miss you every weekend. How was it?" I asked

"Well on Friday grandpa picked me up and took me to school and I spent that day and some of Saturday with them" she beamed

"Why weren't you with papa?" I asked her

"Oh grandpa said papa was having a sad day. I tried to ask and grandma said that papa was missing someone special to him. She didn't tell me who but I made him a cupcake and uncle Minnie and uncle Taemin helped me make cards for papa" she said sadly

Who would he be missing?

Fuck.

The baby. Friday would have been his due date. I could feel tears in my eyes. YoonGi looked at me. He knew about my son. I couldn't keep it from him. Honestly I'm surprised he stayed with me after I told him what I did.

"How was he?" I asked

"Well when I got there he wasn't sad anymore and then we went shopping with Kookie and he got me a new play set. Kookie grandpa and uncle Taemin helped build it. Daddy it's amazing and Papa said my friends can come over and play on it with me"