Dead Inside

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Do you remember that girl in the last bench

The one who sucked up 500-page novels in a day

The one whom you guys never paid much attention

'Coz she wasn't like those of you

'Coz she (seemed) a typical flirt

Who somehow got good grades and had a loud laugh

With a mouth, full of the choicest of abusive words

The one who'd question a lot, the one....

....who spoke to all, but never had a group where she belonged

She died today, seemed a suicide it was.


Yes, she'd laugh out loud, but,

Did you all so-called we-are-understanding people

Notice the signs of depression, she was slipping into?

Yes, she was a flirt, but

Did you all notice, she was an old school romantic too?

Yes, she had an I-don't-care attitude, but,

Does that mean, you continue hurting her,

Just 'coz she didn't let a tear roll out?

Yes, she had an extremely short temper, but,

Did you, any of you, ever care to shelter

The child suffering beyond that wall?


Yes she was a liar, 'coz she had promised

I repeat "promised", to treat ya all

To a chocolate fudge cake on her 14th birthday

But she never gave that

You can continue calling her a liar

But do you know, she'd cried on her birthday

'Coz she came to know, that her father's business had crashed


Were you with her then? No,

Instead you called her names.


She spent a fucking 50K bucks

to get into your school, but damn, she left it

'Coz she couldn't take it anymore

So she ran away and ended herself

She opted for an easy solution, you might say

But she couldn't handle this, not anymore.


Lemme tell you one thing

She was sensitive, emotional as well as creative

She loved to soar and fly, she loved to love and nurture

Underneath that hard exterior of hers

Was an understanding being, who had been left alone


In the next life, she'll be born a bird

Who'll fly, high up in the sky

Real freedom, that'd mean to her

Lastly, not all deaths are physical

Some are mental too.

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If you ever need anybody to talk to, remember I'm there.

Love, K.

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