Meadow Of Roses (Dazai x reader)

Out of Reach

Y/N
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"I'm sorry, that man moved out a few months ago..." An older women says.
You stand in front of Dazai's apartment door.

You came hoping that Dazai just may be there... You were surprised that you haven't thought of that idea sooner.
"Oh I see... do you know where he moved?" You asked,
"I'm sorry I don't know that ether..." She says, pity in her tone.
"Thank you for your time ma'am. My apologies for the disturbance." You say, bowing your head and than walking away.

As you left the apartment building, you feel hopeless.. you feel as if no matter what you do you can never get in reach of Dazai...

You walk home. Your work is finished for the day.
You collapse into bed, it's not dinner yet and you're already exhausted..

You want the days to come and pass faster. You just want to find Dazai and be happy again.. you want Dazai again...
You hear a knock on your door.

"What?" You get up, you walk to the door.
You slowly creak it open,
"Yes..? How can I help?" You automatically say, thinking it's someone marketing their business.
Nobody is there...

You walk forward and look around.
You trip on a wrapped box.
"What the?" You say aloud. You hear your phone ring.
It's Chuuya.

Chuuya: I dropped off something, I know you've been going through a lot. I'm sorry I can't really help but I hope this makes you happy. Sorry if it's a bit burnt.

"Chuuya?" You examine the box.
It's wrapped poorly... definitely Chuuya.
You wonder if he was just drunk and is going through a emotional drunk phase...
You were so confused, you ended up calling Chuuya.

"Yeah what is it?"
"Are you drunk?"
"What?! No! Look just open it, I didn't know what else to do. I know it's been a rough few months but I hope this makes you somewhat happy."
"Why didn't you stop by? I would've made you tea."
"You'll probably be pretty emotional once you open it and you'll probably want to be alone."
"Ok... Well thank you Chuuya. I'll see you later."
"Right. See you."

You hung up.
You walk back inside and close the door behind you.
You check out Chuuya wrapping job.
Sloppy, yet such a classic Chuuya style.
You slowly open it.
You peak inside the cardboard box.
"What is this?" You see a folded fabric inside.

You're scared to open it.
"Should I trust this?" You ask aloud..
You remember Chuuya apologizing for it being brunt or something...
You shake your head.
Chuuya would never do something like that! Trust him! He's your friend!

You perk your head up and you pull out the black fabric.
The black fabric unfolds.
Your eyes immediately recognize it.
Tears role down your face.
It wasn't just any black fabric...

It was Dazai's leather coat...

You hold it tight to you.
"Is this why you didn't want to be here Chuuya? You didn't want to see me sob like a child? Haha me nether..." you say aloud, in between sobs.

Finally something of Dazai within reach.
You feel a bit of comfort to have this with you.
You stare at his jacket for a bit, you run your hand down it.

"So this is what you meant by it burnt huh?" You say laughing awkwardly. More tears run down your face.
You remember how if you were cold or sad Dazai would place the coat on you as comfort. You remember how you used to hold onto it the whole day.

You feel that comfort as you hold it now.
"Thank you Chuuya." You say aloud.
Chuuya really went out of his way to find this for you...

You crawl into bed and hold it tight.
You feel sad, yet happy at the same time.
Your longing for Dazai hurt even more but your content.. Because you finally have some part of Dazai with you.
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(Memory)