Meadow Of Roses (Dazai x reader)

When

Atsushi
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I replace the flowers next to y/n's hospital bed.

.....

On that day Dr. Yosano came exactly when Kunikida had stated.
She was able to heal y/n.
Y/n still hasn't woken up yet, but she's completely healed. I'm glad.
I feel so exhausted though, all the stress tired me out...

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As I fix the flowers, Dazai rests his head on her hospital bed.
He hasn't been himself since that happened.
It's like he lost his calm and sane mental screw. But only he never found it.

He looks awful too.
He has heavy bags under his eyes and even his bandages are loose and falling apart.

"Dazai, I'm sure y/n will wake up soon! It's only been two days." I say, I'm trying to give him hope.
"She didn't tell you did she..?" Dazai asks.
"Huh?" I ask.
"I see..." Dazai says.

"About what?"
"That's there's no chance y/n will ever wake up." Dazai says.
My mind goes blank.
I'm sure he's just so depressed that he probably just lost all hope.

"Now now Dazai, let's think more positive." I say with an awkward smile.
"Dr. Yosano told me." Dazai begins.
My smiles fades away.

"She said... that apparently y/n's mentality or whatever is not letting her wake up. She said that she's pretty much dead without that generator. Don't ask me the details, I'm not a doctor." Dazai answers.

My mind now really goes blank.

No...
This can't be happening.
"Atsushi!"
I can hear y/n's voice in my head.
I can picture her smiling as she walks up to me, asking me about my day.

Why...?
Why did this have to happen...?
"Damnit!" I yell.
I storm out of the room.

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Third person's POV
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Atsushi storms out of the room.
Dazai is left alone.
He doesn't know what to do.
Usually Dazai can always think of something to get out of any hopeless situation...
"...I'm the great Dazai after all..." Dazai says aloud.
But he couldn't bring back the dead.

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It's been a week now.
Dazai stays with y/n every day.
He doesn't leave the room.
Kunikida everyday has to drag him out.

Dazai doesn't scream or whine.
He's not himself anymore.
He's just silent as Kunikida throws him out.

Him and Kunikida don't speak anymore.
Kunikida believes Dazai could've stop this but didn't because of how, 'messed up' he is.

At home Dazai just goes to bed.
He doesn't necessarily sleep, he just stares at the walls.
He may sleep for an hour, but his dreams are all about how couldn't save her.

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It's been a month.
"WHY COULDN'T YOU PROTECT HER?!" Chuuya screams at Dazai.
While walking to work, Chuuya found Dazai.
Chuuya heard everything that happened.
He looks the same as Dazai.
Chuuya has bags under eye too, he looks disheveled as well.

Dazai doesn't answer.
"DAMNIT DAZAI!" Chuuya screams.
He beats the shit of Dazai.
"I cant kill you today. If there's any hope for y/n waking up, she'll hate me if I kill you." Chuuya says.

"I don't ever want to see your pitiful face again. Don't let me ever run into you again. Or I will kill you. I won't hold back." Chuuya orders.
Dazai turns and walks away.