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✯¸.•'*¨'*•✿ Thirty eight ✿•*'¨*'•.¸✯
Exactly one week had passed and you hadn't received any kind of answer from Kurapika. You had read Leorio's text over and over again, messaged him as well, but didn't get an answer back. it felt like you were fighting for nothing at this point. Like, talking to a wall. Longing for something that didn't exist.
It felt like that.
You kept hoping for a response from Kurapika, checked your phone almost every second, but didn't get an answer. You went by Rin's house a few times, but she never opened the door. You also couldn't see any sign of Kurapika there.
It was like he had disappeared from earth.
You kept trying to make yourself believe excuses. Like, Rin telling Kurapika not to text you, maybe even stealing his phone was the most believable one to you. It would not surprise you if she did that. She's done many manipulative things now, so, nothing would surprise you at this point. But it was breaking your heart and it was making your anxiety go crazy.
Yes, it would be weird to other people. How could you still be in love with someone after nine years and let yourself go through all this drama? You couldn't help it whether you liked it or not. Love is something crazy. It is special and also very painful. Sometimes, no matter what you do, you will not lose feelings for someone.
No matter how long you haven't seen that person and no matter how much drama you got through. You, out of everyone, didn't want anything other than a peaceful life right now. Peaceful days without your feelings going crazy. Actually, there was only wanted one thing more than that.
Kurapika.
Kurapika was damaged. Manipulated by a person for so many years damages a person's mindset. It will make someone not understand what was real and what wasn't. It drives someone crazy. It makes them feel controlled and they don't know how to break free.
Kurapika loves you more than you could ever imagine.
Although, maybe it doesn't look like it sometimes. The love for you he has in his heart is something out of this world. But he's trapped in a life full of lies. A life full of fear of being lied to again. for at least seven year's he's been lied to because a girl couldn't let go of him. She couldn't let him be with the person he actually wanted.
And Rin knew that, but she still continued doing the things she did.
She continued to lie and she didn't care about the consequences.
She knew how and when to say things. She knew exactly how to make him do and believe things. Just like now, she knew how to make him ignore you. She knew what to say to get him to stay quiet. She knew exactly how to make him stay with her and he had no chance to escape her manipulation. No matter what he tried, she would always find a way to make him stay.
It was like hell.
There was a point he truly loved Rin and you can't blame him. Rin made herself look like the perfect angel and made you look like a devil. So, they made love. They made love when they were in love. Because they were in love.
But when he found out about the lies, he regretted it. He didn't believe it, he couldn't. He simply wanted to avoid the truth again, making him— forcing himself to believe lies again. Running away from the problem for as long as he could until he had to get confronted with the truth. Something that always happens in life.
''Y/N?'' Azami said, closing the door behind him as he slowly walked over to the sofa, joining you. ''I have to tell you something... and you're not going to like it,'' he whispered and his voice still managed to crack. He gulped, biting his bottom lip harshly.
''You're scaring me, what is wrong?''
''I saw Kurapika,'' he said and his eyes downcast as he played with his fingers. Your heart skipped a beat and your lips curled up into a small as you chuckled awkwardly. ''You did?'' you squeaked, ''you saw him? Where? Did you talk to him? Is he coming back? Did you tell him to reply to me?''
''Y/N... I'm so sorry,'' he managed to breathe out, his heart breaking in his chest. ''W-What?'' you stammered, your eyes widening and you continued to chuckle awkwardly. You couldn't take a grasp of the situation yet, but something inside you broke.
''A-Azami... what did you see?''
''Kurapika... he was with Rin.''
''He was?'' you whispered, ''w-well, that's not bad, is it? He was packing his stuff, right? To leave her, right?''
''Y/N... I don't think he's coming back...''
''What are you talking about?'' your heart started to beat against your chest and you bit your lip as you felt warm tears roll down your cheeks. The sad emotions mixed with anger as you felt your body getting pumped with adrenaline.
''I saw them leave the store and... I could actually see Rin's baby bump this time, a-also they left this one store. I know they sell stuff for babies there, I mean, it was pretty obvious.''
''S-Still.. he could just be with her as a friend, right? O-or he just wanted to give her some company before coming back to me as he promised.''
''They were holding hands, Y/N. You need to accept the truth... I don't think he's coming back and I'm so sorry. I am so sorry.''
''No...'' you whined more tears were streaming down your face and you couldn't control your sobs. The person you had loved for so long was now gone. He was not going to be yours again and it hurt. The fact that no matter what you did from here, he would never belong to you anymore.
Someone who brought you so much joy, comfort and always made you feel so safe, belonged to someone else. The person you've always wanted to marry, belonged to someone else. Something that could've been avoided if the two of you had done things differently. You lost him— and there was no way you were going to get him back.
The drama, the arguments, the hatred for your sister— it had all been for nothing. In the end, Kurapika's mind and heart weren't strong enough.
Rin won.
''Azami...'' you sobbed and felt his arms wrap around you, he held you close. You sobbed uncontrollably into his chest as you felt his hand pat your head. You clutched onto his sweater before looking up at him and kissing his lips.
He mumbled something into the kiss and you ran your hands through his hair, gently pulling on it until you felt him push you away gently. You locked eyes with him before moving your body onto his lap and you started nipping at his neck.
"Y-Y/N,'' he stuttered, ''please, don't. You love Kurapika, not me. Please talk to him.''
You didn't have an answer for him, so, you kept quiet. ''It's okay... please, just talk to him now. I'm sure he's home. You have to talk to him. I understand you're upset, but you have to hear his side of the story. There must be more to it than this... I'm so sorry.''
''As much as I'd love to continue,'' he added, ''I can't.''
You knew he was right. You didn't love Azami like that and kissing him was wrong. You had to talk to Kurapika and talk to him about why he left you. About why he broke the promise.
