Draco Malfoy one shots

Im no better than them (request)

A/N- Hiii, im sorry ive been gone again, I promise i wont leave for good without even telling you guys so dont worry about that. It just sometimes I get caught up with school, work, and life and stuff but im still here, im not going anywhere! Thank you all for continuing to support me and being soooo understanding! I have sooo many request and I promise I will get them all out little by little so please be patient! And i also have a lot of pt2-pt4 ect. to do too!
Remember to request under the specific chapter "request here" and only there please
but anyways heres a request i got a while back, hope you enjoy!!!

- k <3

⚠️⚠️⚠️Trigger Warning!!!⚠️⚠️⚠️

⚠️- mentions of abusive past relationships and includes one hit physically happening

⚠️🤍- If you or anyone you know are dealing with an abusive relationship please reach out to anyone you can, you deserve better
and if you have gone through this, i hope you heal and know it wasnt your fault

*NOT smut*
*kinda fluff, i suppose?*

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"Draco come on you were the one being an ass in the first place"
"me? youve got to be kidding y/n, you were the one letting him get all close to you"
"he was asking for homework help draco!"
"ohh what a lame excuse, and an easy one too because youre a ravenclaw...why was he so close? huh?"
"Because you know I get anxious so i whisper, he just couldnt hear me! youre being a jelous prick you know"
"im being a prick?" he shouts back in disbelief
"yea you are, and im leaving" i say grabbing my bag and walking out of his room

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"so what happened?" my friend asks the next day
"we yelled..a lot, and then i left. hes just being jealous"
"well maybe he'll apologize" they suggest
"ha, yea right" i say as we walk into class
Im dreading every step because just to my luck, dracos my partner in this class
As i sit down i glance over at him and notice he isnt even bothered by what has happened

why do i do this to myself, i think, why do i always let myself get into such shitty relationships... i deserve someone who loves me and trusts me.... someone who wont hurt me
"alright class turn to page 79 and get to work on the potion with your partners please" our potions professor says
"can you grab the water" draco says to me without even looking at me, i can still hear the anger in his voice
i slowly get up and grab the bucket and walk to the back of the class to pour in the water
As im pouring i feel someone come up behind me, thinking to myself i think its draco but its not

"hey y/n" benny says (its a random name, change it if youd like)
"oh um" i start to get nervous because i know if draco sees us talking again things will get bad "h-hi benny"
"i uh, i just wanted to say thanks for the homework help"
"um yea" i say looking past him to see draco staring right at us "no problem"
"i was wondering if you wanted to hang out sometime" he winks
"umm" i being as i see draco angrily storm out of the class room
"no, sorry but no" i finish quickly pushing past him and running after draco

"draco wait" i shout
"what do you want" he turns around angrily
"draco come on you know its not like that" i try to reason
"what was he saying then" he asks visibly angry
"he said thanks for the homework help"
"yea? what else"
"he.."
"he what y/n!"
"he asked me out" i let out quickly as dracos face drops but still full of anger "but i told him no obviously " i rush
"this is ridiculous, this is like what? the third guy to ask you out in like two months? do you go around telling people we're not together or are you being a..." he starts

"a what " i say sternly knowing what he was about to say "a what draco. Finish your sentence"
"a...." he starts and for a second i think he isnt actually going to say it because his face softens as though he realizes that this whole thing isnt my fault... but then his brows furrow and he gets angry again, "a whore!" he shouts

as the words slip out of his mouth my body fills with anger and my hand shoots up before I can even think and I slap him right across the face
As my hand makes contact with him i begin to think im no better, im no better then my exs who have done the same to me... i just hit the man i love, im no better than the ones before.

draco looks at me in disbelief and raises his hand, my mind automatically goes back to the times before where ive seen my lovers raise their hand at me and strike me, so out of habit, i flinch
only to realize draco wasn't raising his hand to hit me, no, he was raising his hand to hold the side of his face where i had just hit him

"whyd you flinch" he asks softly
"im sorry, draco im so sorry i didnt mean to hit you please.."i start but he interrupts me
"whyd you flinch" he asks again
"what" i ask as tears come down my face slowly
"i raised my hand to hold my face but you...you flinched." he explains "did you- did you think i was going to hurt you?" he asks
"i um-" i start
"y/n, have you been hurt before?" he asks suddenly letting his anger go
"draco im so sorry i hurt you" i try to apologize as the guilt takes over and i avoid his questions
"i dont care about that, im fine, i was being an ass and what I said isnt true... Im asking about you," he explains slowly taking my hands in his "we're talking about you, has someone hurt you before?"
i had never told anyone about my past relationships, so hearing someone so concerned about me made me break down in tears
"yes" i say in between sobs
"y/n" he whispers slowly pulling me close into a hug afraid of frightening me "i would never, ever do anything like that to you"
"they said that too" i sob into his chest

"but they didnt mean it, look at me" he says lifting my chin, "i will never hurt you and i will never let anyone else hurt you"
"but- but i hurt you" i manage to get out in between my cries
"as awful as it sounds, i deserved it." he softly smiles, " i was being as ass and i didnt think about what i was saying... it not your fault youre so wanted.. it my fault for not showing you off as my girlfriend properly so those boys understand."
"i always tell them no and tell them im with you," i sniffle, "im so sorry, im no better than the ones ive been with, i hurt you"
"it was a reaction," he explains "you didnt mean it"
i look up at him, my eyes laced with guilt and tears

"hey," he says holding my face to look up at him, "we're ok, we're gonna work through this and we can talk about your past whenever you're ready." he leans down to kiss me softly, a kiss full of love and protection, no anger at all, "besides look," he gestures to his cheek, "im fine, you're not that strong anyways, didnt even feel it" he shrugs and says looking smug trying to make light of the situation and making jokes
"you're an idiot" i sniffle laughing a bit and wiping my tears
"i love you too" he says before leaning down for a kiss again
And i knew, i knew hed never hurt me and i would never hurt him again... because we were better, were better than the ones before

A/N -

Kinda short maybe? idk
Also i feel like i dont write as well anymore but maybe its just me because i haven't written in a while,
but anyways hope you all enjoyed!!!
- k <3