𝖆𝖈𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖘 ✦ jaesahi

chapter 48

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song of the chapter: moondust by jaymes young

"He knows." He spoke to the video camera set up on his desk. He sat curled up in the chair. Staying at work was far too stressful yet he stayed. After it was finished he felt like collapsing in his room. The memory of Jaehyuk was stuck in his mind. The sensation of his lips on him. He couldn't forget.

"He told me at work." He looked down and muttered. Speaking any louder got hard because of the lump stuck in his throat. His heart was beating out of his chest. The anxiety didn't leave him alone.

His vision began to get glossy with tears and his face heated with pressure. For all the long hours he's been at work, he was trying to hold the tears in. Now he didn't know if he could do that anymore.

"Gosh..." he sighed when he felt a hot tear roll down his cheek. He turned to the side and wiped it off with his sleeve.

"He hates me now.." He said. Just the words made more tears well up in his eyes. He hated how much he's been crying these days.

"He didn't tell me but I'm pretty sure he does." anything related to Jaehyuk made his heart hammer and his tears more. His breathing started to become inconsistent and his bottom lip began to quiver whenever he tried to hold back his tears .

"He said he supported me and that he didn't care....but come on." He sighed. He was still in denial of everything. He didn't want to believe him and end up getting hurt.

"I'm not dumb..." he said as he looked down. "I know he doesn't mean it."

"Jaehyuk's a nice person, he's just trying to be nice." He didn't know what he wanted to convince himself. If Jaehyuk was saying the truth. Or if he was lying. He didn't know what to believe. He tried to convince himself what would usually happen.

"I'm sick of it." A tear cascaded down his already tear streaked face. His cheeks went warm because of the pressure making the tear feel cold on his face.