Frenemies Inlove [UNEDITED]

Kabanata 19

Kabanata 19

How can you forgive someone if that someone did something horrible in your past? What if that someone was the reason who hurt you so bad but then after what happened, you still accepted that. What if someone just playing with you but it's still unknown? What if everything happened before was his fault?

After I saw the bracelet, walang pagdadalawang-isip na lumabas ako ng kwarto at bumaba sa living room. The maids who's looking at me was scared. Hindi na yun nakakapagtaka dahil sa galit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

"Where the fvck is Sonje?!" I shouted in the guards who's looking at me with their scared face.

Taas baba ang dibdib ko at kunot na kunot ang noo ko sa nalaman. I have so many questions! But one thing in my mind came up and as much as I don't want to believe it, I can't!

The truth is in front of me!

Godamn it!

"H-Hindi pa po umuuwi si Sir Sonje, maam." One of the guards said na dahilan ng pagbaling ko dito.

He flinched when I look at him but I don't mind. "Don't let him enter the house. Kapag nagpumilit, palayasin niyo kung pwede. I don't want to see his face in my house! Understood?!"

They nodded in unison as I turned my back to leave. I harshly closed the door of my room as I change in my comfortable clothes. I was calming my self not to burst out. Ano pa bang saysay ng galit ko kung wala namang magbabago?

The fact that he didn't tell me what happened before pained me so much. The fact that he didn't tell me that he's there in the accident made me in so much anger.

Hindi ko matanggap.. Hindi ko kayang tanggapin..

I loathed it! I loathed it!

"Damn it! I'm such a fool!"

I grasp my hair in so much frustration as I buried my face in my pillow. I sobbed, remembering what I know in just a day made me cry so much.

Akala ko tapos na. Akala ko hindi na ako iiyak pero sa iisang tao lang rin pala ako masasaktan. Sa iisang taong minahal ko pero bakit ako yung palaging nasasaktan?

Nagmahal lang naman ako..

A soft knock in my door made me stop but I remain in my place. Kasabay ng pagkatok ay narinig ko ang boses ni Mom.

"Hija? Are you there? Can we talk? I can listen, hija. Don't burden that problem of yours."

I sniffed. "Thanks, Mom but I need to be alone right now." May kalakasang boses kong saad dahil nakasubsob parin ako sa aking unan.

Silently crying and praying that this is only a nightmare. A worst nightmare that I need to wake up because I can't take it. I can't accept it.

"Alright. If you want to talk, I'm just here okay?"

I just slightly hummed as I heard her steps away from my room. Kasabay ng pagkawala ng presensya niya ay pagbuhos muli ng aking luhang akala ko wala na.

I was clutching my aching heart. Pakiramdam ko sobrang hina ko ngayon. Pagod na ako sa pag-intindi at masaktan. Sobrang pagod ko na.

I was sobbing but because of tiredness, I fell asleep. Nagising lang ako nang halos hindi ako makahinga dahil nakasubsob parin ang mukha ko sa unan.

I sighed bago humiga ng maayos. Napahawak ako sa pisngi at mata ko dahil sa natuyo kong luha. I clutched my heart, feeling the pain but I feel numb. Nang mapatingin ako sa labas ay madilim na at tanging poste nalang ng ilaw ang nagbibigay liwanag sa dilim.