"John b was being absolutely ridiculous" I tell him as I sit on the end of my bed facing JJ. We left John b's a couple of hours ago and we haven't talked about what happened.
"Yeah totally is that really how people see us. Like a couple?" He said it like it's the most disgusting thing to even think of.
"Dude I have no idea it's probably just John b. Maybe the van fumes are getting to him" I chuckle "Yeah maybe..."
I can see him thinking as we sit in silence for a few moments.
"Do you ever think about it?" I ask he again ponders I'm thought. "Maybe once or twice" he shrugs and shifts his sitting position. I nod "Have you?" He asks "Like once or twice" I bring my knees to my chest and hug them. He nods like I did.
What does he think about when he thinks of us as a couple?
"What do you think about exactly? You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable with that though" I ask looking at him and he smiles while playing with his hand.
"Just stupid shit like me taking you out on a nice date and us acting all couplely around our friends" he says kind of shyly.
I've never seen this side of JJ. He only came to me about girls when he wanted advice on how to hook up with them. Now that I think about it JJ has never had a real girlfriend.
"You've never had a girlfriend" I mumble "Yeah, I don't know why. I'm clearly amazing" he responds "Clearly" I laugh.
"Real talk though I've liked a couple of girls before but not enough that I'd make them my girlfriend" I nod along with him.
"You haven't really had any real relationships either" he tells me playing with his zip lighter.
"Yes I have remember when I dated Topper in the eighth grade?" I ask laughing "oh god don't remind me 'JJ, Topper broke up with me can you beat him up' it was ridiculous" JJ mocks me then rolls his eyes.
"I did not say that!" I slap JJ's leg and he chuckles "oh really then what did you say?" He raises his eye brows and tries to hide his smile.
"I said 'JJ, Topper broke up with me I need you to beat him up' I didn't explain why he broke up with me or anything and you still beat his ass" I chuckle at the memory. "Yeah I got in a shit load of trouble with my dad though" "I know I still feel really bad about that"
"Don't be sorry it's not your fault my dad is a shit head" he tells me "I know" I mumble.
JJ is the sweetest boy I know and he was raised by a dead beat dad. He doesn't deserve that, no one deserves that.
"Come here" he tells me as he comes over and wraps his arms around me while I'm still hugging my knees.
"Thank you for being sorry but you don't have to be, I know you care about me and thank you for that but don't say sorry for things you can't control" he mumbles into the top of my head.
"Ok?" "Ok" I respond.
I stop hugging my knees and wrap myself around JJ. I bury my head into his shoulder.
He smells like cigarettes and salt water which sounds like a weird combination but he makes it smell amazing.
I feel so happy in this moment my heart starts beating faster and I feel butterflies in my stomach.
I wish that I could hold this memory in a bottle or something.
JJ gives me one last big squeeze then we let go of each other.
"I'm thinking about getting pizza for dinner is that ok with you two?" My mom asks peeking into my room "Yea mom that's fine thank you"
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Why'd you only call me when you're high?~Outerbanks
Fanfiction"How have I fallen for this boy who only tells me he loves me when he's high?" Haven Summers and JJ Maybank have been inseparable since middle school. She's always attempted to hide her true feelings for the blonde boy, but lately that's getting mor...
