GUARD | Billie Eilish

blade where your heart is

I fucked up.

So, I had a moment where everything was too much, got a taxi into town and now everyone is screaming my name chasing me.

Especially Tom.

"come on b, you're a sweet one styll" he chuckled

Now I know, why isn't my fans noticing him. Well that's because we are in a fucking alleyway because that's a good idea. Oh and I'm also backed into a brick wall.

I still have no idea who he is but i'm guessing he's trying to fuck with me because he knows that Robyn works for me, and they must have some shit going on.

"you got a snap or sum" he tilted his head

"w-what no"

"don't be nervous, we're gona have some fun"

Somethings telling me that we're not.

Next thing I notice was his crusty lips placed onto mine. Weed. Fuck of course he smokes it, ain't that shit illegal here?

"stop" I mumbled pushing him off to which he only laughed and held onto my jaw tightly and kissed me again

I muffled a scream trying to get him off of me but his grip on my waist and jaw tightened.

I was trapped.

"MY FUCKING GOD" I heard an angry voice yell and Tom's lips were ripped away from mine

Never in my life have I been so relieved to see Robyn standing there.

"h-how" I tried to say but was still trying to catch my breath

"in the fucking car now." she glared at me and beside her was yet in fact, her matte black Lamborghini

I shuffled beside her opening the door to the passenger side and watched as Robyn didn't move a muscle as she stared down Tom

"we were just having some fun" he chuckled

"fun? you're lucky i don't have some fun and make you a dead body" she growled and walked over to me

Fuck was she angry.

When she got in the drivers side she didn't say anything for a little as she sped off.

It wasn't long before we pulled into an empty parking lot.

"what the fuck was you thinking" she yelled

"i- how did you even find me" i gulped

"i have a tracker on your phone" she said bluntly

"the fuck do you have that for that's fucking creepy" i yelled shocked at her answer

"in case you do stupid shit like this, and oh by the way your mum made me do it because she said you could be fucking stupid billie"

Do I like that she's mad? Billie stop

"i just.. i wasn't thinking" i sighed

"well you don't get to do that when you're a celebrity" she said bluntly again and began to drive

She's right, I don't get to do that when I'm a celebrity. I forget that's sometimes, I just, sometimes I wish I had my old life back but at the same time I don't. It's like I can't even have moments where I'm any emotion apart from happy because if I am, everyone makes me seem like the bad guy, or when I try to get some space, life turns into some GTA shit.