Y/n POV
He states making me make a confused
Y/n: Lied..about what?
I ask as he looks down then back into my eyes
N: About having errands, also I didn't wanna leave you going home in an Uber its something about you alone with a creepy Uber driver I just don't feel comfortable...and plus we got to spend a little time together because all the other times your trying to avoid me
He explains as I look at him, part of me wants to jump into his arms but I can't and I won't because I'm over it he's having a kid and the rational part of me knows better and that's the one I should follow
Y/n: Thanks
I say...that's all I say and his expression tell me he wanted to say more
N: Ok well we should get home I hear thunder
He says as I nod looking straight I felt bad for not elaborating but there's nothing to say really. He then begins to drive as I was lightly fighting with the ring on my index finger I was just nervous for some reason.
N: So how was your class?
He asks trying to make small talk
Y/n: Good, and boring
I reply with a monotone voice, we stop at the red light as it immediately starts raining light drops as we get to the next signal its rains so hard we can't even see, the sign on the right says we can't enter the highway great now we'll be here longer. Nick makes a turn as the whippers of the car move back and forth vigorously
N: Well we have to stop all the entrances to the highway are closed, roads are blocked and the vision isn't so clear.
He says taking a turn into a plaza as he parks the car, and I quietly sigh, he lightly taps his fingers on the steering wheel, the car was parked under the hood so I step out as he follows and we walk into the diner in front, taking a seat, these were single booth so he sits next to me with some distance
N: So....
He says lightly
Y/n: So...
I reply with the same more dimmer energy
N: Ok I can't take this anymore....I hate this
He says making me immediately look at him
Y/n: Hate what...me
I say as he shakes his head and huffs
N: Why the fuc*k would I HATE YOU, I hate the fact that you don't talk to me, that you hesitate to tell me how you feel, I hate seeing you with someone that isn't me, I hate the fact that I can't hold your hand and kiss you and I hate the fact that you told me you loved me and I didn't back
A whirlwind of emotions go through my body as I hear those words coming his mouth, I don't know what to say he has very caught me speechless
Y/n: Can we not go through this again
I say as he shakes his lightly looking right into my eyes
N: No, because that day you left work, I came to your house but Brandon stopped me
He says as I raise my eyebrow slightly
Y/n: What?
I question as he nods
N: Yeah I came over to talk to you but Brandon told me that you were asleep and that you were upset
He explains as he nod
Y/n: Yeah that was a rough day, anyways I don't think I would be able to talk about my feelings
I explain as he nods lightly, I look down fidgeting with my ring on my fingers
N: Your doing it again
He replies making me glance at him with a questioning face
Y/n: What
N: Your fidgeting with your ring again and you do that when you have something to say but don't say it....just talk to me
He moves closer as I feel my breath getting faster...maybe I should tell him
Y/n: Fine you wanna know....I fell in love you with I don't know how, I don't know when but it was want I needed and what I wanted
I say as his eyes turn soft and calm
Y/n: But I hesitate because I'm broken, my heart is broken when I saw you kissing her and you told you you felt something that was the point where I knew I was intruding. And yeah I don't wanna talk to you because every time I do I'm just reminded of everything so stop asking me because we can't work this can't happen
I answer sighing as he places his hand on mine caressing it lightly I glance at him we
N: I know this is complicated but I love you
My eyes where still on his hand which was placed gently on mine transferring the heat from his skin to mine. I then glance immediately towards him hearing those world travelling to my ears, I can't really describe the feeling it like an overwhelming amount of emotions looking into his eyes as he waits for a response I wanna say it back, I do, knowing my head is over him or so I think but was my heart is just trying to move on and doesn't want to. I feel so bittersweet because he belongs to someone else
Y/n: I-
I stutter it was so obvious I was speechless
N: I love you
He repeats coming closer he places one of his hands on the side of my cheek coming closer as he gazes his nose with mine, knowing what's he's doing to make me weak
N: I love you
He whispers against my lips as he lightly presses his against mine. Pecking lightly making me lightly close my eyes at the feelings of butterflies and tingles everywhere he pulls away looking into my eyes....ugh I want to say it so bad
Y/n: That's the problem...we can't work
I say as he gives me a face of despair
N: I know you love me, you admitted it serval times why can't you just say it
He responds as I sigh
Y/n: And even if I do, and even if I admit I do which maybe I do it wouldn't matter because I can't do that to Emma
I reply as he scratches the back of his neck
N: She been nothing but horrible to you
I nod but that's the point this isn't some game of revenge
Y/n: I know but, she's carrying your child and she's happy, how can I take that away from her
I say as he sighs nodding
N: If only she knew how much you care about her/you
He says as I look down then back at him....I just can't do this anymore, I mean I've already cried enough to see myself in the reflection I love him so much but I can't do this
Y/n: The rain stopped maybe we should head out
I say as he nods
N: Yeah I guess we should
He adds as I we get off the booth
