Falling for you

Movies

Alison:
I am an evil genius.
I knew that scary movies caused Emily to become weak and vulnerable. And tonight I needed her. I can't believe that her and Paige got together. I thought that maybe if Emily liked me she would stop talking to Paige and try to get at me. Now how was I ever go to kiss her or hold her hand or just be with her when she was with Paige.

Wait, stop. This shouldn't bug me. I shouldn't be thinking about getting with Emily because I don't like her and I definitely don't love her. Tonight I was just going to be there for her when we watched the movie. The cuddling meant nothing to me, definitely nothing.

But as I was holding her in my arms and she dug her head in my neck when the killer came, I couldn't help myself. It was like a war going on inside my body-the way Emily made me feel whenever I saw her. My stomach dropped and I felt butterflies every. Single. Time. She saw the better side in me and she made me laugh. She was so sweet and innocent and perfect. But at the same time, I liked boys and maybe I was just confused since I had just been through a bad break up. Plus, Emily was with Paige so clearly she loved her and I was never going to get to hold Emily like Paige will.

"Aliiiii I can't do this anymore" Emily said into my neck, breaking me out of my trance. She was curled up in a little ball and I smiled to myself. I seemed to be doing that a lot lately, especially when I looked at Emily.
"It's almost over!" I remarked flashing my dimples at her since I knew she loved that. She shook her head at me and I heard her heart thumping.

I looked at the screen for the first time since the movie started and Emily and I jumped at the same time. We broke into giggles even though the scariest part was happening. We both stopped at the same time and looked at each other intensely. I figured there wouldn't be a better time then this. I leaned in slowly, never looking away from her eyes.
"I can't Ali." Was all Emily said and she stood up.
"Wait, don't go. Just, stay with me." I pleaded grabbing her hand that was so warm and fit mine perfectly.
"Did you just try to kiss me?" She asked bluntly.
I laughed, "only in your dreams!!" I hoped it was a good enough cover. It seemed to work because Emily visibly relaxed.
"It just seemed like it..." She said awkwardly and blushed.
"No, you had something in your eye. Like a hair or something." I fibbed hoping she believed me.
"Oh." She sat down next to me again and molded into my body as we finished the movie.

The only thing that was running through my mind was "Emily rejected me. Emily doesn't love me like I love her." But maybe she only rejected me because she was with Paige. I was her first love and you never get over your first love and I hoped that was true.

"Finally, it's over." Emily breathed out into my ear and I got goose bumps everywhere. Instead of replying I played with her hair and ran my fingers down her arms. She shivered and placed her hand (weakly, might I add) on mine as if almost to stop me but I knew she didn't want me to.
"I'm going to change." She untangled herself from me and went to her bag. I decided that I should probably start acting as if I didn't like Emily in that way so I turned off the tv and avoided her gaze as I changed.

"Goodnight em." I whispered in the dark.
"Goodnight Ali." She whispered back.
"I love you." I said in my mind.