Falling for you

I cant be Miss Moving On

Alison:
I kicked Emily out of the house, and it hurt like a mother trucker. Even though I had told myself I didn't care, I broke into sobs as soon as I shut the door. How could she do this to me? And then lie to me about it, she was still in love with Paige. The realization sunk into me and a sick feeling reached the pit of my stomach. I bet she would go back to Paige as soon as she left my house.

Maybe I should just shut off all my emotions. It would be better that way.

The image of Paige and Emily kissing kept filling my mind and my throat hurt from crying so much. I didn't even think it was possible to cry this hard.

No, stop. You're Alison DeLaurentis, you're the one that everybody wants and you could get anybody you wanted. All I have to do is move on. It won't be that hard, right?

Just call me miss moving on.
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Emily:
I left Alison's house feeling like I was going to throw up from crying so much. I couldn't be angry at Alison because it was all my fault. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without feeling extremely guilty and ashamed. Why had I ruined something so perfect?

The worst feeling ever is knowing you can't have something you want when you want it really bad. That's how I felt about Alison. She had become the preppy, manipulative Alison DeLaurentis and it was all my fault. I could never have what I've wanted since forever, I finally had a little taste of paradise but that's all it was, a little taste.

I couldn't move on, I would never love the same. I know that seems dramatic, but she's the only thing that makes me happy. She's the only thing I look forward to in my day. She is literally my life. And now I've lost that.

The tears poured out of my eyes again and I swiped them away angrily, I didn't deserve to feel sorry for myself. I didn't deserve to feel anything at all.

No, I couldn't think like this. I had to fight for what I loved. And I love Alison.

I lifted my head up and I felt a little hope. Maybe if she saw me never giving up then she would believe me and forgive me.

I ran to my room and started planning out exactly what I would do and how I would react to the rejection she would give me at first.

I glanced at the clock, it was 2:00. I had thirty minutes to plan my first attempt because I didn't want to annoy Alison's mom by keeping Alison out late.

I literally ran over to Alison's house and knocked excitedly on the door.

"Emily?" Her mom asked in surprise.

"Sorry, I'm here...again." I smiled sheepishly and she opened the door, gesturing for me to come in. I put a finger to my lips and she nodded in reply. I walked quietly to her room and knocked on the door.

"It's open." I heard Ali's muffled voice.

I took a deep breath and opened it but shut it quickly.

"Emily. Leave." She said intensely, mascara running down her face.

"No. I'm not going to leave until you hear me out." I clenched my fist and she looked at me in surprise.

"You have no right to talk to me like that." She snapped, her eyes filled with hate.

"I know but God, Alison. I can't function without you, I can't live without you, all I can say is, I love you. I screwed up, okay? She kissed me and I thought that if I kissed her one last time she would see that she didn't love me like the thought she did. I wanted her to leave me alone because yes, I did love her. But no, I'll never love anyone like I love you. And that's the truth." I put my heart out on the line.

Alison looked me in the eyes for the first time that day, her eyes softened as she looked into mine and I held my breath waiting for a response.

"A kiss is a kiss."