Big and Beautiful, Paisley

Ch. 21

***UNEDITED***

Paris,

"Stop cryin' cause it won't do you no good" Paisley told me

"Easy for you to say, you got Renz who's good to you"

"Laithan a good person-"

"But he called me out of my name?" I growled "Oh"

My phone started to ring, telling me that Laithan is calling me for almost the 40th time since I left.

"That annoying motherfucker" I mumbled

"Talk to him"

"No"

She sighed and answered the phone again.

"She's in the bathroom" ... "Look, taking shits are complicated, okay?" .. "Ugh, fine- here"

"No"

"Talk to him, I needa pee"

"Then hang up, Ion wanna talk to him right now"

She put it on speaker.

"Talk, I'll be in bed- goodnight"

She jogged out my room and closed my door. I let out a frustrating sigh. I took it off of speaker and listened to see if he was gonna speak.

"Baby-"

"Who said I was still your baby?" So inquired

"Paris, don't be like that. I messed up, just hear me out"

"I heard you enough, bye-"

"No, no, please just stay" He stated "I really needa talk to you"

"What made you do this anyway? Am I getting uninteresting or boring for you? Am I not satisfying your "needs", Laith?"

He stayed quiet.

"Mhm, goodni-"

"Paris, listen... I'm sorry I called you out your name and everything earlier. I fucked up, aight? I know I did and I regret it. I just..."

"You just what?"

"I just slipped up" He sighed

"If you was so horny, you could've used your hand!" I shouted

"It's not the same! Shit"

"Excuse me?!" I exclaimed

"Wait, I didn't mean-"

"Whatever, goodnight"

I quickly hung up the phone and turned it off. I didn't want to be bothered or annoyed, so I'm taking my ass to bed.

Paisley,

"Larenzo, why you here? You left like almost an hour ago" I questioned

I don't know why he wanted to use my ladder to climb up in my window, but eh, his choice I guess.

"We needa talk"

"Um...?"

"No it's not bad, well, kinda, I mean, um-"

"Just tell me" I smiled as I sat in my bed

He took off his jacket and and shirt along with his shoes. He rubbed his hands together as he laid on top of my lap, playing with my pajama pant's string.

"What is it, babe?" I asked, playing with his hair

"I'm nervous" His body fidgeted

"It's okay" I kissed his messy curls

"Well, " He grabbed my hand "This might sound kinda corny but you know I love you and I wouldn't want to live without you, but sooner or later, Imma be gone"

"Oh cool, what college you going to?" I adjust myself in my position

"No, it's not that" He held my hand tighter

"Larenzo- don't cry, what's wrong?"

"I'm scared" He sobbed on to my lower stomach

I felt his back gain tension in his muscles. He wept onto my body for a while, wrapping his arms around my waist, snuggling against me.

"Why?" I rubbed his back

"Because, I don't wanna leave you but I don't got a choice. I can't be here with you anymore because that's the choice they made for me. And I don't like it and I can't take it. I hate the fact that in just a few months you can't see me anymore because of this stupid thug shit. And now, I got all this shit weighing heavy on my shoulders just pulling me down. I just don't know what to do and I don't know how to control it, Paze.

Don't get me wrong, I love you with all my heart. I purposed to you because I love you dearly. I love you to the point where I would die for you, be the one to give you kids and spend the rest of my life with. But both of us," He ran his hand through his hair, then wiped his face as he took his arms from under me

"Stop.." I shook my head

"Paisley, we're gonna have to let go of each other soon, very soon. We have 2 months left"

"Don't say that, Renz"

I didn't want him to leave. Not like this. And I can see how frightened he looks just by talking about it. The thing is, it's so hard to take this in right now. I love him, I'm in love with him. I just can't give him up so easily and so fast.

"I'm so sorry" He wiped my tear stained face

"Why though?"

"This nigga just wants what he wants. But he wants me gone to get to you"

"Me? What did I do?"

"I really don't know" He rubbed his neck

He stared into my eyes and I looked away. I don't know how to fix this, but I know I can't.

"Y'know I love you, Pooky-Face"

I smiled. He rolled off of me, patting his lap. I shook my head.

"C'mon," He patted his lap once more

"No, I'm to heavy"

He glared me down.

"What I say?"

"You know what you said, get that ass over here"

I rolled my eyes and climbed on top of his lap. We were facing each other as he grabbed both of my hands. He looked at me then came forward to peck my lips.

"I love you, baby" He said

"I love you too, cutie" I chuckled

"So how about we go and hit that court house?"

"Right now?" I gasped

"Right now" He grinned

"Really?!" I jumped up and down on his lap

"Ugh, Paze stop it" He groaned

"Oh I'm sorry, um-"

He picked me up and quickly laid my back on the bed. He seductively climbed over my body, pinning my hands over my head.

"Never mind, the court house can wait" He whispered in my ear, licking my collarbone playfully

"What are you doing?... Larenzo" I whimpered

"You're not ready?"

We stared into each other's eyes, and I nodded.

"You're ready?" He raised his eyebrows

"Yes, I am"

He smiled slightly and started to kiss my neck teasingly.

"We're not gonna need those condoms are we?" I moaned in his ear

"Who said we were gonna use them anyway?"