It's A Odd Feeling (Tom Riddle x Reader)

📃👤 "...my parents..." 👤📃

A/N: 

Hi, um yeah. I'm glad for the people who have read this little book this far. Honestly I'm really starting to get into the feel of it and just express my own emotions in the characters. Also I'm probably going to recommend music to listen to while reading. 'Cause well it'll make it have more of a "feel" you know? If you don't like music that's chill with me you can just read it how you want. Just thought it'd be fun too. Anyway thanks for all who read it. Even if it's just one person I appreciate it 👍. 

IMPORTANT IF YOU DIDN'T READ THE A/N: play "Deal With It" by Ashnikko. Sometimes the music I'll go with the feeling of the chapter or I feel like it goes with the emotions of some of the characters.

We've had a bit of a time skip happen. It's the first day of break so no ones here except Tom, Renava, teachers, and Draco. (I've decided I need some parts with Draco. Like the reader gets to know Draco more.) 

Renava's POV: 

I sat in the library as Tom scanned for a book to read. It's only the first day of break and I desperately wish it was over. 

"Darling," Tom coos to me. 

"Yep?" I say back not looking up as I had my nose in a book. 

"I recommend you look at me while you speak," He says. 

"AND~ who made you master of my actions, Tommy?" I said sarcastically. 

Saying that was like challenging a bull. If you weren't careful you'd get the horns. 

"I did." He said with his signature devilish smirk. 

"I honestly was just wondering about what happens a few days ago with you and Pansy?" He said a small smile of pride. 

I was confused on why I read his face and found pride. Quite weird but it's Tom what's can you expect. 

"Well, she said I was cheating on you and the basics of a girl who's just jealous." I looked him fully in the eyes. 

I felt a glint of anger make its way to my piercing greenish blue eyes. And Tom saw it too. 

"You mustn't believe her okay?" Tom said a little more serious now.

"I do believe Parkinson is a smart girl yet she does not have the right state of mind to plan out a revenge as clever as you, so you shouldn't be worried about watching you back. And your attitude for that matter." Tom said. 

"Hmm? Oh Tom why! I hate when you eves drop in my conversations." "Especially when it consists of me having to act like a dim witted, moron." I mumbled the last part a little ashamed of my actions. 

I feel a hand grab my jaw and pull it up. 

"Don't ever talk about yourself like that. You're absolutely none of that." Tom said. Fire burning in his eyes.

"You're the brightest person I've ever met. Excluding myself of course." I slightly chuckle at his words but I still have a small sulk attached to my energy. 

"Your flawless in your mind and in your performance, Darling." He said a hint of sympathy lacing his voice. "This is an odd feeling. Comforting one as if they were just a young child." He hand now rubbing my cheek. 

"I'm heading back to the common room to read. The library today just really doesn't suit my mood." Tom gets back up on his heels and turns around.

Now I'm left alone with my thoughts and a deathly silence. 

Well sh*t no one told me I was going to feel like absolute garbage over break. Ugh. I'm mentally screaming at my self right now. Pansy really gets on my nerves and sometimes it's hard to hide. Do I really need to hide my feelings at this point. I'll be going into my 6th year soon, so I guess someone will confront me about them. 

Oh what I would kill for someone to talk to right now. Specifically Lea. She's always there to let me rant, but I haven't done that many times. I like to bottle up my emotions, stress, and anything I can practically hide from the outside world. It's like I'm living in a cave where at any time the roof would just fall in and crumble at my feet. 

My thoughts were interrupted by footsteps coming in my direction.

Malfoy

I could tell now. His sounds moving closer. He's always there and I don't know why. Why is he always here. Why can't be Tom always be here. I love Tom! Not f*cking Draco. What am I talking about? Like where did this love thing come from. Anyway I'll just ignore that. 

"Lekort?" Draco asked with his smirk.

I gather my things and try heading out. 

"Hey stop," He puts his arm on my shoulder. 

"You stop, Draco. I need to leave." I say shoving his hand off. 

"Your being immature, Lekort. Now talk to me." He said looking at my eyes contently. 

"Draco I don't have time for your games. My life just really isn't that great at the moment." I say under my breath but loud enough for him to hear. 

"Stop. You helped me in my moment I'll help you in yours." He said. 

"I don't want your help Draco! I just want to be away from anyone who's going to make me feel like sh*t like f*cking Pansy always does! She puts me at edge like you do sometimes! No offense Draco but I think you need to stick your greasy hair somewhere else. I'm in a sick mood and not interested in what you have to offer..." I pause not looking at Draco because of the tears about to burst out. "Sorry that was rude but I just need to drown in the Blake Lake cause I obviously can't get myself under control." I say with a single tear streaming down. 

"No no you don't. I understand-" "You honestly don't though." I cut in

"I understand why you'd lash out though." "Going through something like that really puts someone on edge, Lekort. I understand that part. That sense of how when one sentence can make your anger over fill your own emotions. Stressful to say the least." 

"I think at this point I just need someone to talk to. In a healthy way, but you know I'd be an outcast if I said I had therapy," I laughed that off. 

"Let's head back to the common room. I think your boyfriend would want to talk with you." He winks to me when he says that. 

"Oh my gosh Draco! Your such a child." 

We laugh like 1st years messing around with a chocolate frog. 

"Draco, I was thinking..." I trailed off.

"Thinking what?" He asked. 

"About my parents and how much I miss them. Or basically just where I knew where they came from." I said sounding a little depressed. 

"Sorry I don't know anything about them and if I did I wouldn't bother telling you." Draco entails sharply and you saw tears streaming down his face. He sounded angry and desperate. 

"Draco?!" I yell. "What the h*ll just happened..." I whispered to myself