Wrong Body •Trans Tommyinnit au•

Chapter 4

'Maybe this won't be so bad'

Tommy

My eyes flutter open as light pours in my room from the window.

I roll over and check the time on the clock

11:58 am

"So much for a nap, it's fucking morning" I mumble

Then the realization hits me, I slept through dinner...

My mind races and it doesn't seem like it plans to stop any time soon.

'They're gonna yell at you'

'They're gonna lock you up'

'You just got here and already screwed up'

My thoughts are running at a thousand miles per hour and my breathing is uneven.

TW: panic attack

'I can't breathe'

'I can't see'

'Help'

Tears cloud my vision and I'm choking

'They hate me'

' I fucked up'

'They're gonna send me back'

At this point, I'm shaking violently but I don't want to bother anyone so I have to do this alone.

'Deep breathes'

'In and out'

'Bathroom'

'GO TO THE BATHROOM'

I scramble to get up and stumble to the bathroom which thankfully happens to be in my room.

Once I get there I turn on the faucet and put my face under it.

Cold water pours over my face bringing me back to reality.

'You did it'

'Your okay now'

'Focus on the cold'

I lean on the counter and let my hands sit under the cold water.

'I can breathe again'

'I did it'

TW over

I decided to shower at this point, I smell and I'm almost soaking.

Looking in the mirror,

'Goddammit'

---Time skip---

Long story short, I showered in the dark and didn't dare look down.

I picked out another outfit that covers my curves cause you know, dysphoria is a pain.