Wrong Body •Trans Tommyinnit au•

Chapter 5

'Maybe they aren't so bad'

Tommy

I wake up shaking and in a cold sweat

'Goddamn that closet'

I check the clock and it shows 2:45 am

I sit up and hold my hands out, they're shaking still.

I get out of bed and walk towards the door, I hate walking after nightmares because it feels like I'm not real, I feel like a soul trapped in a body that I have no control over.

I peek my head out of the door looking for clues that anyone is awake, I don't expect them to be but there's a white light illuminating the hallway, it's coming from Techno's room but I decide it's best to ignore it.

I studied the way the floors creak so I know where to walk without making noise, this skill came in handy at the old homes.

I make my way to the kitchen for some water because my throat feels like I've been screaming non-stop for 8 hours

'I hope I didn't actually scream'

I grab a cup and fill it up from the fridge and drink it while leaning on the counter.

I turn around to put the cup in the sink and I almost drop it when someone whispers in my ear.

"What are you doing," they say

"HOLY SHIT!" I whisper loudly, catching the cup before it falls

They laugh at me

"I got you," they say while doubling over

"Oh piss off Techno," I say and roll my eyes

"What" he says innocently

"What" I mock and set the cup in the sink

"Ok ok I'm sorry, but what are you doing up?" He asks

"Oh uh" I pause

'Do I tell him?'

'I can trust him, right?'

"Just couldn't sleep, sometimes I remember bad things and it keeps me awake, I'm okay though" I explain

"Oh, well would you like to talk about it?" He asks

"I won't judge" he adds

I think for a second, I trust him to an extent, I haven't been here long but he seems genuine right? I say in thought

"Well um, can-can we talk about it in your room maybe?" I ask

"Uh, yeah sure," he says

Techno

I'm currently farming potatoes and I check the time
2:40 am
'It's pretty late, I'll go get something to drink and then read something' I say internally

I shut down my computer and walk to the kitchen where I see a figure, I can make out long hair and they're a little above average height so it has to be Teagan.

'The hell is she doing awake' I think

I decide I'm gonna scare her

She turns around to place the glass in the sink and I creep behind her, in the deepest voice I could muster I say,

"What at you doing"

She jumps and whisper yells trying to catch the cup

I double over in laughter

I tease her a bit and she mocks me, I ask her why she's awake at this ungodly hour and she just says she couldn't sleep, something to do with bad memories?

I ask her if she wants to talk about it and she thinks for a second before asking to talk in my room, I say yes, of course, I want her to be comfortable.

We go to my room and I shut my door, she sits on my bed and I sit in my gaming chair, we sit in silence for a few seconds til she breaks it.

"Ok I think that I'm ready to talk about some things that have gone on in my life but you have to promise that you won't tell anyone else until I'm ready" she begins

"Of course, it's not my place to share anything of yours so I promise," I say

"Ok, so as you know I've been through 5 different foster homes, they were all terrible but one stuck out the most, I was put into a foster home where this couple had a son, the son's name was Tubbo" she starts

"They favoured him over me and treated me like shit when he wasn't around, they didn't let me go to school or go out at all, they only fed me when he was home and they verbally and physically abused me. I thought I could trust them at first because they used to be nice to me, so I told them how I felt about...well myself...and that's when it all went downhill, they would hit me and call me horrible things, they would make me cook and clean and if I messed up they'd lock me in a small dirty closet" she speaks coldly and carefully like she's choosing her next words.

I listen and give her all of my attention

she doesn't make eye contact at all, she's constantly staring at the floor and messing with her ring.

"I don't know if I fully trust anyone, I mean I have no reason not to trust you guys, it's just...hard" she explains

"Tubbo never judged me, he always did his best to make me happy, he played with me, he'd rant about the things he liked, he'd stay up with me on bad nights and give me tips for anxiety and other things," she said

"I miss Tubbo," she says as a tear falls from her face

"Hey don't cry, I'm sure you'll see him again eventually, but in the meantime just know that we are all here for you, you aren't a burden and you will never be, we fostered you to give you a better life and there's nothing you can do that would make us want to send you back to that hell hole," I said

She giggles and says 'thank you'

I nod

A few minutes of comfortable silence occurs and I decide to break that by asking,

"So want to hear about The story of Jason "I grin

She smiles and nods

"So Jason he had to get this Golden Fleece for reasons that are probably important but I don't really care about them..." I begin to rant

'Finally'