Feelings 2

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Hardin Castillo
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A cold fear swept through me as I stared at the body on the floor
  "Jayden! Jayden! We have to get out of here". I heard a voice say but it sounded so distant
   Taking a step closer to the body , I leaned over to peer into the face when a strong hand gripped me .......
  "Let me go ! Let me go! Let me go"I screamed loudly and then jolted out from sleep
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A cold shiver ran down my spine as I sat up on the bed ,i was panting heavily as my heart beat erratically
    "Hardin! Are you alright"I heard Hazel asked but her voice sounded so distant as I was lost in my own thoughts
    The nightmares, they keep on coming to remind me of my past ! Can't  I sleep in peace for once?
    "Hardin" She called again and leaned over to switch on the light bulb and that was when I saw the dried tears on her face and the sadness in her eyes but I was just too agitated to ask her about it
     "What is wrong with you Hardin ? Why did you scream like that?" She asked , a concerned look on her face .
    "Nothing". I managed to say and she sighed
     "It is going to be alright! It is just a night mare" she yawned
   Just a night mare! hell no, it is far from it .
  Laying back on the bed , I pulled her close to me ; she was reluctant at first but soon relaxed in my arms as i held her tightly
    What is wrong with her! Did I offend her! Did I hurt her in anyway! Why  was she even crying!
      Oh yeah! it is probably because of the kiss but was I wrong in telling her the truth!
   I sighed softly
   I wanted her to be happy! I wanted to see her smile! I wanted to tell her how beautiful she looked today! I wanted to tell her she is the first girl I have ever held like this but no, I will end of hurting her because love doesn't work for me .
  staring down at her face , She was already asleep .
   I brushed off the hairs off her face as she chewed on her lips
   She must be going through a lot!
but come to think of it , how did she end up as a maid! Why is she not in school!
   There are lot of things I don't know about her , i guess I will have to ask her!
   Watching her sleep , I soon drifted off to sleep!!!!
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    Next Morning
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    The  first ray of the sun pour into the bed room window , I squint at it as i forced my eyes open
I turned sideways to see Hazel still sleeping peacefully
She must be so weak!
Stretching, I sat on the bed as I glanced at the wall clock
Damn! It was 8:00am, I was already running late to school
I jolted up from the bad and dashed out of the room to my room and on entering my room , I found my mom seated on the bed
She stood in a huff as soon as she saw me
"Where are you coming from Hardin?"She asked , her hands on her waist
"And where are you also coming from?" I fired back at her
  She huffed . "Don't get cocky with me young man and just answer my question?"
    I stared at her for a while and then smiled
It was obvious she knew I was with Hazel .. well! since she wants to hear it from me , I will gladly tell her
      "I am coming from Hazel's room"I answered, staring intently at her   and saw her eyes grew wide in shock
    "Hazel! Your maid! And did you spend the night there?" She continued and I nodded truthfully
   "Oh God!" She took two small steps backward. "Rebecca told me all about it but I couldn't bring myself to believe it"
  Oh right! She finally confessed
"But why the hell will you be stay in the same room with your maid or are you both screwing each other?"
   I froze on the spot . "Screwing! and Who the hell is telling you all this crap? Rebecca "
   "Just answer me  , Are you screwing your maid ?"She yelled and that was it , I flared up
   "Maid ! Maid! Maid! can't you do without calling her a maid ? She has a name for crying out loud  and so you should know , I don't fucking care about what you or that "loud mouthed bitch" think about us , her especially, but if you dare scold at her or try to fire her , you will never ever see me again". I threatened and to my surprise, she became so calm
      "Does she really mean that much to you?"her lips quivered
   "Of course ma". I nodded . "she is the only one  in this house who understands me"
   With that , I retreated and took few steps to the bathroom when she asked
     "Do you know she is older than you?"
   "Older ? "I repeated in surprise, turning to face her
   "Yes son , she is 3 years older than you", She stated and  I felt my head spinning
21! that tiny girl ! how can it be!  I mean I have always seen her as someone younger  , she doesn't look it at all.......why am I even getting work up about it , It is not like it changes anything
    She is  still Hazel and I am still Hardin
   "Okay". I simply answered and walked into the bathroom to freshen up ......

  Returning to the room, I met my mum on the bed with her hands cupping her chin
   She was lost staring into space and my heart churned  a little on seeing her this way .....
   Despite all the anger i have towards her , I still couldn't bring myself to hate her , she  still remains my mom and will always be; and to tell the truth, the thoughts of seeing her again was what kept me going while I was in prison.
   I wanted to hug my hands tightly around her and assure her that she will be fine but hell no ,it will end up in pain
   Ignoring her , I went over to the wardrobe , pulled out a black hoodie along with a black pant trousers and hurriedly dressed up in it ; then put on a black boot
   Slinging my backpack across my shoulders, I picked up a comb to style out my hair
      "What about your mai .. erm Hazel ?"She suddenly asked and I stared at her in the mirror to see her staring at me
   " She is sick"I answered rudely and she exclaimed softly
    "Then what about breakfast, should I go get it for you?"
    "No ma, I will pass", I stated . "and one more thing! please do not disrupt Hazel sleep , she needs to rest"
  "Okay". She answered with a low voice
  "Good!" I Picked up the car key and my phone and walked out of the room with one of my hands in my pocket .
 
                                 Hazel Dakota
  
   My eyes fluttered opened and i rolled on the bed stretching
    Hardin scent filled the whole room and that was enough to bring back the sadness to my face
Sitting up on the bed , I glanced at the wristwatch and my heart jumped into my mouth
  13:00 pm! oh god! I am so finished
  I jolted out of the bed and rushed into the bathroom to clean my self up and when done , I returned to the room
        The cramps were all gone and I felt so relieved.
    I took out a red gown from the big black bag at the corner of the room and hurriedly dressed up in
  Having done that, I walked out of the room to Hardin's room
    Entering , I found his mother laying on his bed with her eyes closed
   My heart skipped in fear
Oh Hazel , you are really done for!
I turned around and was about leaving when her loud voice stopped me
    "And where do you think you are going to?"
   I retreated my steps and turned to face her
  "Erm Good morn .. I erm afternoon ma". I stuttered as she  stared blankly at me. "I erm am sorry for not cleaning up erm your son room on time erm , I felt so erm so sick ". I tried explaining to her
  She was quiet for what seems like eternity and then she sighed
   "Come have your seat ". She said with a surprisingly calm voice , tapping the bed as she sat up
     I walked slowly to the bed and sat down faraway from her should incase she flare up .
  "Good! so Can you please tell me the reason why I employed you?". She started and I swallowed hard  
     "To be a personal maid to Hardin". I answered, hearing the sound of my heart as it threatened to explode from my rib cage
   "what then is this I am hearing about you and Hardin?" She continued with the same calm voice
  "I don't know what you are talking about". I feigned ignorance and she smiled lightly
  "Oh! I never knew you to be dumb but anyways , let me rephrase the question for you
Is my son fucking You?"She asked with accusing eyes and I shook my head vigorously
"No ma, Nothing like that! Hardin and I are only friends.. erm I mean he is my employer". I quickly corrected myself
    Only friends! Then why the hell did you Kiss me. My subconsciousness mocked me but I waved it off
  She sighed. "I am lost at what to say ,I feel so confused right now , I am not against your friendship with Hardin in-fact  I am happy that heartless son of mine is already loosening up but I just don't want him to hurt"
  "But ma I am not trying to hurt him". I said Innocently and she chuckled
    "Of course you are not , but you will if you both continue with your friendship"
   I stared at her confused as she paused to typed something into her phone
    What is she trying to say? Am I about to be fired? Oh Lord, please let it not be what I am thinking
  "Yes!so as I was saying , don't try to misjudge me  but I just want you to cut all closeness with my son and go back to being his personal maid". She said In a rush and I heaved a sigh of relieve
At least I won't be fired! I will still be in the same house with Hardin .
  She continued. "And believe me when I say, I am not saying this base on the age differences , I will say this to you even if you were younger than him"
  Age difference! Does that mean she is among the few individuals who doesn't care about age . I thought within
  And as if reading my thoughts, she said
"I am older than Hardin's father with four years"
  "Four what".I blurted out foolishly and she nodded slowly , staring at me with a far away look in her eyes
   "Dave was everything I had always wanted , he was caring , hardworking and most especially, a good husband but will all that , I still screwed up because no matter what he does , he was always like a kid to me "
   "Oh". I exclaimed softly not knowing what to say to her but I understood her point perfectly
  She doesn't see age as a big deal but she believes relationship like that never lasts  but why is she telling me all this , Hardin does not even regard me , he does not even like me...
  "Hazel" . She snapped me out of my thoughts
  "Yes ma". I quickly composed myself.
   "Are you alright?" .She asked , her intent gaze on me and I nodded
     "Good! You can go to your room"
"I will ma, but I need to clean up this room first" I said, referring to Hardin's room
    "No dear ! you need to rest, Rebecca will do it today"
    "But ma.... "I tried to say but she cut me off
   "Just do I say"
  "Alright ma". I agreed , standing up from the bed
"And do not forget what I told you , severe all closeness with him". She reminded and I nodded again
  "one more thing, we never had  this conversation, is that understood?"
   "Yes ma"
With a heavy heart, I walked out of the room knowing everything she said was the truth
    But what can I do? I am helplessly in love with a teenage boy who doesn't even feel the same way about me , his reaction after the kiss tells it all ....
  I exhaled deeply,
I think it is best to make our relationship an official one and who knows , I might get over my feelings for him .
But will that ever be possible! I guess I will have to try .

  Pushing the door opened , I walked into the room and sat down on the bed
   I reached for my phone and dialled  Mike's number
       he received it on the first ring
  "Hello Hazel". he greeted first ,sounding so surprised
  Of course he has to be , he is the one always doing the calling
"Hi Mike! how are you?"I asked , nervously
  "Fine Hazel"
  "So erm I called to know if we can meet up this Saturday"
   "Yeah! Sure!"he agreed
    "Good!  I will be giving you my response"

    
                               Hardin Castillo
  

    After school hours, I bade my friends as I headed to the car lot
  Friends! Did I just say friends! hell no, they are just my class mates
     Getting to the car , I opened it and was about getting in when I heard someone call me
  I looked in the direction of the voice and saw Kimberly running towards me
  Not again! She was really a pain in the neck today
      "Hardin". She called again when she got closer and I faked a smile
   She steadied her hands on her knee for a moment , breathing hard; and then raised her head up to look at me
  "Didn't you hear me calling?Why did you make me run this way?"She queried
    "What exactly do you want?"I asked, ignoring her query and her eyes lit up
   "Actually I wasn't able to sleep yesterday as I was thinking about the kiss we shared"
   "So?" I scoffed.
  "Erm I want us to kiss again". She licked her lips seductively
     "No Kim, I need to get going now". I retorted, staring at her sexy lips
    Shit!Why must she be so beautiful?
   I was tempted to pushed my tongue into my mouth and kiss her till I could kiss no longer but no, Hazel is sick and I need to be home on time ....
  "But why do you like pushing me away?"She frowned and I chuckled lightly
"I am not honey , I just need to be home and moreover we will be spending the night together on Friday ". I said trying to lighten up her mood and it worked
   She beamed happily
  "Alright Castillo". She grinned like a puppy and I smirked
   "See ya tomorrow" I bade and with that , slid into the car closing the door behind me and started the car , driving off ..

   I drove into the big compound and on seeing Hazel standing beside one of my mom car, I smiled
  Alighting from the car , she rushed to greet me as usual but I noticed something different, she had this straight face look ....
    Is it still the the period pain? I thought within
   "Welcome Sir Hardin". She greeted and that was when I knew , she was not alright
  "Sir Hardin! What is that?" I asked with a chuckle , but she still maintained the same straight face
   "Can I have your backpack Sir?"She asked politely and I handed it to her with my eyes wide opened
  The Hazel I know would just drag it from me !!!!
   She continued. "Is there anything else you want me to do for you?"
  "What exactly is wrong with you?"I fired at her  and I saw it again , her tears
  "Hazel"I attempted to touch her , but she took a step backward 
  "I will bring your food to your room". She said and before I could say anything, she scurried away
  Gobsmacked, I watched her run and something in my heart clicked ; my heart began to race faster and I felt so ..... scared.....

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