AGE( it is just a number)

Can't forget about you

                             Hazel Dakota
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Even after two months , I couldn't go a day without thinking about Hardin as my heart still yearns for him ; despite the way he treated my like trash ,I still miss him , still want him and most especially still love him.

A loud shrill cry disrupted my sleep and I slowly opened my eyes to see Alexia singing and dancing around the room.
  Crazy! When did she even get back from school?"I thought within
   glancing at the wall clock in , it was a little past 14:00pm
      I widened my eyes in surprise
     unbelievable! I never knew I slept this long!
  Lazily, I sat up in the bed , rubbing my eyes as I made a yawning sound
   "Do you want to swallow me?"Alexia asked , turning sideways to face me and I smiled, ignoring her question
     "But what exactly is wrong with you?"she continued, I mean you sleep most of the time and also get tired easily , are you sure you are alright? " she  asked worriedly, removing the earphone from her ear as she sat down beside me
    "I am alright!"I simply answered
Dragging myself  out from the bed, I went over to the wardrobe , opened it and searched through  for my black gown....
       I have to get ready  for work!
     "but isn't this night job gonna be stressful, why can't you just skip it ?" Alexia probed on
   "You should know , I need to save up money to register for SAT before its closing date". I answered, pulling out the gown : then placed it on my shoulders
I removed the  sheet wrapped around my body , about to wearing the black gown when I suddenly had the urge to puke
     I rushed into the bathroom , leaning on the toilet as I retched and cough up a thin stream of vomit
     Oh God! what is wrong with me? I wondered , breathing hard .

returning to the room, I collapsed on the bed
      I was so damn weak!
    "Are you sure you are alright?"Alexia , asked staring down at my face  and I nodded slowly
   "I just need to rest a little"
    "Again?" She rolled her eyes , but I ignored her , closing my eyes as my mind drifted back to the last sex I had with Hardin
   Am I possibly preg..:no it can't be , it is probably just a fever .
   The door suddenly flew open  and my mum walked in , holding a brown envelope
"Hazel". A man on bike asked me to deliver this to you". She stated , handing me the envelope
   I sat up , looking at the envelope and then back at her
   " a man  on bike".I repeated and she nodded
   "You should open it"
Curious, I tore up the envelope and brought out a folded paper ; unfolding the paper, what I read made me screamed loudly
   " what is it ?"Alexia asked, staring down at the paper 
  "It is..it is.. it is a SAT slip registered in my name" I answered, staring at the form with trembling hands and my mum audibly gasped in surprise
  "how is that possible? I mean you haven't registered for it or have you?" She leaned over to have a closer look
   "No I haven't , I am also confused or ........i trailed off , reading  the slip all over again
  My name! date of birth! hobby!even my favourites quote were filled up correctly and the only person who knows me this well is ....Hardin
  " it is Hardin". I said aloud and my mom  and Alexia exchanged looks
  "Hardin! they both chorused and I nodded slowly
"And why would he do that ?" Alexia retorted in disbelief.
    "That is because!That is because!...I don't even know". I sighed and my mom gave me a puzzled look
"This is so confusing! I mean if he cares  enough to register you for SAT , why then did he dump you?"
"he didn't dump me ,he just stopped talking to me ". I corrected, making Alexia roll her eyes
   "What is the difference?"
   I opened my mouth , about to say something when the queasy feelings returned
  I jolted up from the bed and rushed into the bathroom to puke ; returning to the room , I came face to face with my mum curious gaze
" what is wrong with you Hazel?" She asked , holding her waist
    "Nothing mum". I answered trying not to meet her gaze 
" Really". She continued. "so tell me , how many times have you done this today?"
   "It is twice mom". Alexia butted in and I bit at my upper lips , giving her a " I will kill you look"
    "Whatever ". She mouthed and looked away
An awkward silence fell ,and from the blank look on my mum face I could tell what she was thinking..
" You still a virgin right?" She suddenly asked i was a bit taken aback by her question , I wasn't expecting her to put it this way .
"Are you?" She repeated and I swallowed hard
"Erm mum erm I yes erm erm no mum". I stuttered and she scoffed , nodding her head slowly
"Oh!now I get it, that teenage Jerk got you laid , taking your pride just because of this mere slip". She yelled in anger , snatching the slip from my hand then  threw it on the floor
"Mum". I called softly , tears rolling down my eyes
"Are you this desperate to get into college? Is that why gave him your body?" She fired at me I shook my head vigorously . "I will never do that"
" why then did you sleep with him ?"
" because I love him" I answered truthfully and that was it  , she flared up
"Love! Love! All I keep on hearing is love! why did you do it? Love !! If truly there is love between you both , why  then did he throw you out of his house? Why hasn't he called you ever since? or is it a one - sided thing? If yes , what will happen to the child growing inside of you" . She rasped and I froze on the spot
Growing child! What the hell is she talking about? am I really pregnant? hell no , it can't be , it really can't be
She continued . "I have been watching you closely Hazel ,the way you sleep, eat  and even your sudden weight gain all arouse my suspicion but i waved it off believing you were still a virgin "
     "No mum! all this are mere assumptions, I am not pregnant" I stated and she huffed
  "Then I think you should find out yourself"
With  that ,she hissed loudly and stormed out of the room .